Dark Ambrosia

[bezjak]

Have you ever wondered why we struggle against what we are? Is it that we fear our very nature, or fear what we as a species have the potential to become. Thus we have these self-imposed measures to control ourselves physically and spiritually. Don't get me wrong I am far from an anarchist, but if I can change one persons way of thinking, if I can open one persons "eyes"....then my life was not in vain. I have ALWAYS wondered why people believe what they believe in, and what it would take to change a persons beliefs. To confront religion on a whole is taboo and unheard of , besides that would be a massive undertaking. Generally we have all have been taught simply to believe what our forefathers have believed without much question, no matter what race, creed, or ethnic group. For to question is blasphemy. God (the Unseen) is a totally different subject, for the Creator has nothing to do with the man-made rituals we use to worship, has nothing to do with the power-hungry warlords who use religion to shed blood, nor does the Unseen "create" natural disasters to "smite" the "wicked" and "godless". The Unseen is the one who created the laws of nature and "physics" that we are all bound by; where energy is not lost, it is merely transformed. Being one of many species here on earth with free-will, "we" are free to choose our fate before and after death, just as "we" chose to come to this plane before life. Let me slow down a bit for this is just the introduction, and there are many more subjects to be spoken on, I will try to explain how I've come to believe what SEEMS to be a (1) truth, where each part is as important as the whole, and the whole escapes the bondages of both time and space. "There is a reason behind all things said and done. Purpose is what drives us, but without action our world is lost."- R. Tiberius Burks. For sometime now we have been living in a world full of chaos and mistrust. We have been living in a place where the blame of societies problems has been aimed at the "fruit" not the "root" of societies woes. From birth "we" have been misguided, deceived, lied to, and brainwashed to the point where hate is the norm, greed is rampant and minds are easily controlled by those holding the illusion of "power", promising us a better "life", or a glimpse of hope. Truth is there is no hope without change, there can be no change without revolution, and there can be no revolution without "us" realizing that "True" freedom has its costs. Before I get into our past, present, and future I would like to make one statement. "Whether you as an individual want to accept this or not fact is "we" are the LAST of our species, all others even resembling our kind are extinct, period." Furthermore one by one countless cultures that once made up the diverse fabric of "human tapestry" have been or will be destroyed, without question or hesitation......before anyone gained the knowledge of how these cultures began, or why they believed in the "gods" that they worshiped, or where these cultures gained the knowledge and skills to lay the foundations of empires that modern leaders today model their governments by. Just how did these ancient cultures accomplish such longevity? I am no historian by any means, but I do know this; the ancients were closer to the truth than we "modern" people might ever be. For "we" have forgotten who, no what "we" are, yet I "feel" I remember and I'm willing to share......

[bezjak]

I have always found this earth a horrid, strange and beautiful place full of wonders...anything that came within my sensory range I tried to remember, for somehow remembering seemed (seems) important to me. I would take note of each creature, each geological feature, each sunset, the stars, and every body of water that I saw. Nothing seemed out of place, everything seemed like it had a divine function within nature and the cosmos. All except for us "humans", for we were the ones who polluted the very water we drank, we were the one who killed for abstract reasons, we were the ones who poisoned the air that we breathed. Although "we" as a whole fear death, it seemed that we carelessly spread it though out this world on which "we" inhabited. These were the conclusions that I came to as a child, now I realize thing are more complex then this......as a child I was TOLD that we had souls; the "good" went to heaven, and the "evil" were banished to hell. Simple enough I thought, but there was more! Even the thought of "evil" could land you in hell, if you believed in the wrong religion, and there were many of those, you would go to hell. It seemed that this Loving, Caring, Forgiving "God" they preached about had issues with His creation, and would never allow me into heaven at all. And this heaven they spoke of was a place of total comfort; mansions, gold, feasts of food, any "earthly" desire could be fulfilled. Yet when I asked, "Why would one need those thing if one had no earthly body?" I received no real answer, just odd looks. That is when I realized that I would have to search for the answers that "I" needed myself. It seemed natural for me to follow whatever my "soul" told me to do, say, read, or dream. For somehow I knew both "good" and "evil" were with me for a reason, there was no denying that, but what was the purpose of having such conflicting thing within me , and everyone for that matter? Furthermore I wondered if our emotions had deeper purpose, for emotions are what drives us on this "earthly" plane. We are sometimes consumed by both positive and negative emotions. Yet we are never truly "taught" how to control these emotions, and its difficult not to see the world around us, at every turn you can see the fruits of "uncontrolled" emotions. Have you not wondered why someone would take what they didn't need, or want to hold on to something that was clearly mere illusion? Was it control? Power?

[bezjak]

(" Do not follow other gods, for the Lord your God, WHO IS AMONG YOU, is a JEALOUS God and his ANGER will burn against you, and he will destroy you from the face of the land."-Deuteronomy 6:14-15) There is a reason why I used this quote from the Bible....to show something we hold in common with the "Unseen One", emotion and eternal life. As said emotions are what drives "us" in life and after we embark on the long sleep from the physical world. Each one of our emotions has the potential to help us withstand the pressures and stresses of "daily" life, yet the ability to control these emotions will help "us" maintain form after death. Without control, chaos will abound within ones self, and in the world around "us". We must understand "who" we are before we can accept what we are....simply put we are children of the Unseen, made in the Unseens image (metaphysically), each containing a small piece of something that in future will be unified (eternally). Yet until "we" realize the lessons taught by all "life" we remain on this plane, not necessarily within a body, or any given time-line. (I will come back to the 'other gods' later.) Control, focus, balance, and endurance are needed to leave this plane, for reincarnation cannot be broken by one without these 'keys'. We must remember we are designed beings, tied to mathematics, perfect examples of the "Divine Proportion" PHI:(1.618). Yet somehow(as a whole) we have stepped out of tune with the multi-verse, universe, our world, and ourselves, believing something that we are not....which is being different from every living organism existing. We must focus, as said we are the last of "our" species and we are in the process of destroying every known (and some unknown) eco-system on this world. One by one, gone for eternity, leaving us less "life" to be able to return to, to learn it's lessons. Though "we" are children of the stars, we will never see the stars with our physical "eyes" unless we as a whole control greed and hate. Misplaced these two emotions will destroy "us" all. We must find balance between good and evil within ourselves. Lastly we must have endurance to maintain this balance, for the longer we maintain balance the closer we will be to truly being free.

[osiris]

I have only the monkey wrench today.... Do you think maybe God is the only one to worship? You think that he did not know that we were going to pilage this planet like a viking warrior? We are not here to worship this one of many mansions or anything that is on it or made by man. Mother earth should be loved for what she provides. But never worshipped. Grounding you out is all that will accomplish. If you are to fly no single planet should ever hold you down like this one is capable of.
It is very possible this world is bound to be swallowed by chaos. In the thralls of the madness we see around us i would say its likely. Unless something very amazing happens and soon.

[bezjak]

I thought someone would ask that of me....(hee-he-ha-snort!) This is merely an intro to let the masses know where "I" started. Not a finalized statement. True the earth should be respected more than what she is being "today". Furthermore this (the earth) is the place where "bezjak" has sought knowledge, studying the places, and topics that "Ma.ka pu'u" has guided him to......this my friends is an epic journey not a mere field trip. As "I" have stated before, "I" do not intent on EVER returning to this plane again, but while here I do wish to share what seems right. I have no wish to misguide, or repeat elements that are common knowledge. Yet "we" all have a basis somewhere, or should "I" say "some-when".(he-he!) And for those who might think that I'm totally against the "Christian" faith, do not be fooled by this intro, since "I" believe that "we" ALL are parts to a greater whole, this includes all life, physical and metaphysical, no matter where or when these life-forms exist(ed). And for the record even the gods of old, creatures of legend(myth), angels and demons, other planes, dimensions, are part of the "whole" of the Unseen One. To worship one deity, is not exactly what I'm getting at. To see the beauty, and the grandeur of it all may sound incomprehensible but this is also a point that "we" must look at. Can a single cell comprehend the majesty of the body? No, it can only serve it's purpose. This is a problem for many people out there, trying to understand to much....not seeing the forest for the trees.....I can only do and say what I was meant to.....no more and no less.....and once I fulfill my purpose here on this plane. (see Deep Sleep)

[osiris]

Dont get me wrong many things we do are border on worship of this one plane. You think in the end that makes a travellers job harder? Or easier with the gain of love and knowledge? By border i mean crystals and having allies and learning from history. If you plan to go where i believe than ill see ya there soon...And maybe MA.ka pu'u as well. The traveller has been abound and gets restless. Keep an eye for the raven the traveller is not far away.

[bezjak]

Osiris......To answer your question, "we" must be able to separate the "gift" from the "gift bearer", only then will "we" be able to travel freely. To hold on to the "essence"or the "lessons" of something, and not the "physical" per say. Does that make sense to you? "We" all need allies, and are prone to group together, for many different reasons. Ravens know many things, just ask them and they will lead you to the answers you seek.....but the real question is," Can you accept the consequences that come with being intertwined with the essence of all things?"

[bezjak]

I will skip some of the intro and get to the meat of the matter soon ok? But for now relax.....time is not an issue. (he-he-ha-snort!)

[Dancing Bear]

I have not read all of this Bezjak , But i felt i needed to say with what i have read so far, It has touched a cord deep down . It has concreted a few things for me.

Thank you So much for taking the time to share this..

Off to read the rest

[bezjak]

a (1) simple lesson I learned from the "fire ants".......you don't need a big brain to work together, make enemies, or inflict pain. ( I learned that the hard way!) (taken from "Dark Ambrosia" chapter.15 'The lessons they teach.')

[osiris]

i am ready. And it has begun. I have fear but it is controlled and used as instinct now. already i have fealt plant life and nature, already i have fealt people and there abundant energy, and now animals i begin to feel and see as they do. Soon i will fly.

[bezjak]

What do the spiders teach "us"? Patience, weave your "web", "manna" will come. Find stillness and sense vibrations.(Dark Ambrosia chapter 15)

[bezjak]

"Today is the tomarrow from yesterday."- Dion R. Jamison. In the papyrus scroll "Ani" it is stated that, "The piece of God which resides in every "soul" can be awakened by the power within a pyramid." Secrects within the pyramid.....the ancient Egyptians had many beliefs but the one that I will focus on is the fact that they believed the "soul" was broken down into different components; The "ACH"- the clear soul: the part of our soul which left our mortal flesh after death to travel throughout the cosmos. While the "BA"-a coupling of a bird with human head, could move within the self-fixed boundries made by the mind, for it is "attached" to the living flesh. The "KA"- is what is left behind after death to collect energy from sacrifice, praise, and offerings to help energize the "ACH" on its eternal journey. Many cultures today practice ritual sacrifice, give praise and surrender offering to the dead, and their God(s). The ones we have worshipped are not jeolous without purpose, for through our effort we power their escapades within and beyond the multi-verse. They "need" us to be confined in a set standard of belief, ignorant of what we are actually doing, lost in the cycle of reincarnation, and uneducated in the lessons of all "life". As said nrg is not lost it is merely transformed into new forms, we are bound to this law like we are bound to each other, like we are bound to the stars, like we are bound to the true timeless One. The Unseen, creator behind all the beauty and horrors that await "us" in a place beyond our dreams.... Some believe the "chi" is the life-force within us that can be focused to accomplish great mental and physical fates, others believe the "manas" is what returns after death to reside in a new being. Many indigenous peoples speak of animals as "brothers" and thank the animal spirit for providing flesh. And of course some believe to break the cycle of reincarnation one must free ones-self from ALL negative thought. There is truth in all of these ideas....yet is only part of the truth enough to still the "hunger" within "us" all? Our past is full of things of wonder and amazement, as is our future, for a new cycle of oneness with the cosmos will begin, where the lessons taught by all things will be utilized in their fullness.

[bezjak]

I see that this has been read often yet only two people have commented....FEEDBACK PLEASE! Otherwise....."Dark Ambrosia" will only be found in bookstores in about 2 or 3 years.

[crazycat]

OK! OK! I have been enjoying ever bit of it and shame on me for not replying. When you get it out in print I would like to buy a signed copy, so be sure and let us know. I am very intriqued.


Have you ever wondered why we struggle against what we are? Is it that we fear our very nature, or fear what we as a species have the potential to become. Thus we have these self-imposed measures to control ourselves physically and spiritually. Don't get me wrong I am far from an anarchist, but if I can change one persons way of thinking, if I can open one persons "eyes"....then my life was not in vain. I have ALWAYS wondered why people believe what they believe in, and what it would take to change a persons beliefs.

I too have always had a fascination with people and their beliefs, but I don't have a desire to change any of them. I want to know them and what, how, and why they believe the way they do and I like sharing with others about who I am and my beliefs and all. It fascinates me to no end how different one's minds work. We are all truly like a universe unto our selves. The more fascinating the universe the more time I want to spend there getting to know their reality. Like Stephen King, his reality/mind fascinates me to no end. The more unusal and different the more I like it. ;D My fascination makes be a bookworm. A big bookworm. There is just some much to know and absorb in a lifetime. We can just go on and on forever into infinite incarnations and never know "It" all. The Creator has infinite facets and they are all different. One of my favorite toys when I was a kid was a kaleidoscope because ever turn was a different design. I would set for hours looking into that thing.

I love your book to be, Bezjak.

[existenceisadream]

I see that this has been read often yet only two people have commented....FEEDBACK PLEASE! Otherwise....."Dark Ambrosia" will only be found in bookstores in about 2 or 3 years.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo!
I am one of those that have been reading but haven't been replying or posting much (and that goes for the whole forum as of late).
I really can't wait till your whole book comes out so I can read it from front to back. You're teasing us Bez
But really I do appreciate what you have posted so far (of the book and on the forum in general). I just don't really have much of a reply as of late. I'm taking an anthropology class right now and I'm very interested in this field (though my study goes more into the study of consciousness and reality in whole, anthropology is a huge part of that). The class is all about religion and different cultures and why they believe (and do) the things they believe. Fascinating. Been reading and studying a bunch on Hmong people and learning stuff I never would had thought. It's amazing how different people and cultures are.
Well anyways like I said I am always reading but just haven't been posting much.
How much of the book do you have done?
So far seems very good and I'm sure will be a great read.

[bezjak]

Thanx CC, EIAD, DB & Osiris......I'll get back to posting D.A. in the morning, today is 9-11 so my mood is a little off....pain is still heavy in the air, and I feel it.

[bezjak]

The Abandoned Gods..........Imagine if you will the emotion evoked when one looks upon Stonehenge, Ankar Wat, Machu Picchu, Uxmal, or the Gaza Pyramids for the first time. The amazement of the sheer size, the wonder of the precision, the question of how such feats could be accomplished in antiquity. Not to mention the cryptic reasoning behind the building of such grandiose monolithic masterpieces. We are left to ponder, did our forefathers call forth forces, beyond our natural logic, who still linger among us? The abandoned gods are not to be confused with the Unseen, for they like "us" are merely pieces of the "truth", though at times it is difficult not to mistake One for the others, for they have been given "power" to probe our minds, and beliefs among other things. Though through the sands of time many of the abandoned gods have been forgotten, yet to lose knowledge of something does not make it merely vanish into non-existence, to be ignorant of a being makes it no less influential. Keepers of secrets, the abandoned ones guard the manifestation of the Unseen's KA which has been placed in everything in every realm both physical and metaphysical, good and evil. Since we are mostly unaware of their doings, they are able to hold dominion over many lives, feeding off our collective emotion, to say that we are not alone is very true, in fact we were never alone.....and at times we tend to lose ourselves within the power struggles and tribal like wars still practiced by the ABANDONED GODS, though their true purpose is to prepare "us" for oneness with the cosmos to join with the Unseen.....they are the ones the Unseen is truly jealous of, for each one at one time or another has received sacrifice and offering as THE GOD. Which brings me back to the state our world is in, the madness within the beauty of it all. All the things that make this plane a place of excess and extremes are far more then what they seem to be.

[bezjak]

When I use the word "abandoned" I mean ALL of its definitions....forsakened, uncontrolled, and utterly lacking "moral" restraints.( they have been preying on our ignorance for some time now.) Note- I am sure that emotion in all its states is what feeds all spiritual beings, whether it be their own, or the emotion of others. I feel that there are those on the other side who influence us through whatever means necessary to evoke uncontrolled emotional/metaphysical nrg to feed off of. (some cannot "feel" as it were, do not remember what it is to be "alive", and have no intention of taking on a "physical" form.)

[bezjak]

As the butterfly flutters by, he shows you the power within subtlety. Chpt. 15. "The lessons they teach."