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Post by andin on Dec 12, 2005 16:23:32 GMT -5
I slept like a rock last night...didn't get a thing.
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Post by Anise on Dec 12, 2005 23:21:38 GMT -5
I shall begin this tonight. As I said in my tarot log I just got my new decks in today so....new stuff to work with
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Post by Anise on Dec 14, 2005 1:21:19 GMT -5
Ok so I studied the fool before going to sleep last night and thought of what this card means to me...I did have a dream which I remembered.
Me, my mom and my brother were traveling somewhere and we all wanted to stop at a particular place. I think it was some sort of museum or something. Tours were being given throughout the building. The three of us went off on our own. We were "looking" for something although I'm not sure what. I think we were just looking around to see why we all had the urge to be in there. While walking I was actively looking for clues pertaining to my father (he passed away several years ago when my brother and I were young). I kept looking for pennies in particular and looking for any clue on the penny from my father. I found two pennies which didn't seem to be anything of importance. We then went into a room where a a janitor was. He was cleaning up (sweeping) some papers on the floor. I was still looking for pennies and I saw a desk drawer slightly opened so I opened it more to look inside. The guy got upset and started to say something. Before he could finish I told him to listen to what I had to say. I explained what we were doing...I said, "ok before you get all pissy and throw us out hear me out. Don't speak until I am completely done because what I am doing is important and a little confusing to those who don't understand. We were drawn here by me late father for some reason and I am looking for pennies that might give an idea of why we are here. If you are mad that I open the drawer that is completely understandable, I just want you to know that I (we) never intended or ever will intend to take anything. Now some people may think I'm a bit strange and others think I am completely crazy but I have a reason to be here and I'm not leaving until I'm done" (I know I said other things but can't remember it all). All the while he was writing in a notebook. he started to say that we had no right to.... I didn't like where he was going with that so I took his notebook and tore the pages he was writing out and tore them up. We left that room and went back out to the lobby area on our way out of the building. In the lobby there was a large group leaving that just finished with there tour. I would have to say that there was at least 30 people in this group. On the floor (where the group was walking) I saw two pennies. One of them wasn't special but the other one had a bust of a female on the front and the lincoln memorial AND the buffalo on the back. It was like one was printed over the other but both were clearly visible. The female bust was like that of a cameo charm or something. I kept it satisfied that this was what I was there for. On the way out of the building my mom said that she was proud of me and what I said back there. She said a few of the things I said hit her hard but were true. For some reason it felt like a major weight was lifted from me. When we got outside it was dark and raining, she forgot where she parked the truck but I knew exactly where it was. So we were able to get in without getting too wet. Then I woke up.
I have no idea how this pertains to the fool if at all. But this dream felt so emotional to me. I felt on a mission of some sort and didn't even know what it was. I don't think my mission was what I originally thought it was (finding that one penny). My mom absolutely loves cameos (which was on the face side of that penny). We are all still shaken up about my father's death even though it's been almost 20 years. My mom and brother both still have a real hard time with it during this time of year. For even more background...my father battled cancer for a while. He was in and out of the hospital all winter before finally passing on Valentine's day. All three of us didn't celebrate Valentine's day for year and years (actually this past year was the first year I didn't feel empty inside on that day). But my brother is still having a real hard time with that. In fact I just had a conversation with him about it last week. I told him he needs to stop mourning that day and celebrate it for his family. I told him that dad wouldn't have wanted us to do what we have been doing. I told him my personal experiences through life with dealing with it and told him that it's hard but we all have to move on.
Those are the only things I can pick up on in this dream at the moment. I'm sure I'll make sense of it in time.
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Dec 14, 2005 18:29:33 GMT -5
hmm intesting anise..I can see many things pertaining to the fool here..also I wanted to say Im sorry to hear of your father..I know how you feel my dad had passed when I was young....
the fool is represented 0 because it is what is unknown to us..and yet it is going after that unknown..this dream to me is showing how the fool comes into our lives..how we embrace the fool by taking a chance and it is showing that even when we take any leap in life, stop by somewhere or by you guys visiting that museaum...we find that the places we least expect will present us with something that we have been looking for..or it will find us when we least expect it, even if were just going to the grocery store, that is still taking a leap..and sometimes we find something sought after in those places.. like the fool is 0 the begining of consciousness..it is also suggesting discovery..it is when we are first discover life.. so the I see the fool as a discovery card in many ways. wow anise your dream inspired a new way of seeing the fool..thank you! and this is what I was hoping for when I posted this dream study.. but I see it very clearly relating to your dream..and I think its great how the information can be relayed in a such a way.. I hope Ive made some sense here..lol
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Post by Anise on Dec 15, 2005 0:32:35 GMT -5
Oh you made perfect sense I see the connection you speak of now. Thank you for helping me with that. I'm glad I could offer my dream to help the study. I usually remember dreams but you know when I "try" to or "want" to it's harder. But this one was completely different very vivid.
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Dec 15, 2005 9:02:03 GMT -5
okay great!!!yay!very cool..
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Dec 15, 2005 17:46:10 GMT -5
okay guys I wanted to conclude the fool for now so we can move on to the magician, is everyone ready? also do you have any final questions of the fool??? okay I think its time to move to the magician!!
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Post by section8 on Dec 16, 2005 17:19:09 GMT -5
I agree lol.
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Post by andin on Dec 16, 2005 21:37:37 GMT -5
Me, too. Let's move on.
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