WoW (((((Existence is a dream.)))))
I get where you are coming from!
I was there many years ago. I did change my life around. I moved states and started a brand new life.
I now grow a lot of my own food.
I Will NOT use GM food.. including canola oils, Californian Nuts etc etc etc the list is immense.
I bought a book with all the codes they use on our food packets too..It tells you what the code represents and what health risks the thing has..
Like all this sugar free stuff.. actually has aspartame in, which is cancer causing, causes headaches, asthma, skin rashes etc etc..
SO diet this and that, think about what you are actually putting in your mouth.
Sugar free gum , Coke zero, diet this and that. all natural ingredients LOL! Natural is actually a brand over here.. so when it says all Natural ingredients , a lot of the time it means the ingredeients come from the company Natural..
and wont even consider anything to spread on my home made bread anything other than real butter.. MIlk, cream and a little salt.
I can describe the ingredients LOL!!
ALL your low fat milk has fillers.. one of those fillers is " wait for it " Plastic.
apparently it is an edible plastic HMMM!
Life can get depressing, when you look at the world and the values they uphold. All the toys they think they should have to be socially acceptable.
To see the mentality of many people , its friggin scary!!
Like i have been talking to people about Paranormal Activity 2,, How many people think that , it is real, blows my mind.. Its a crock!
I suppose its why i am holed up , in a place on this planet that still has wilderness around, and a place big enough I can grow my own food. I teach my kids how to grow stuff , what to look for in food on the shelves.
How to survive in this mad world.
Once i turned my life around and started doing it for myself and immediate family, I have become happier within myself.
I sat down and thought about my well being.. What do i need to fulfill that.. I came up with a list. and made a promise to myself I would feed my well being at every opportunity.
It has kept my head above the waters. I am human and at times i slip, But i am now learning to let things go that i have no control of. I let go of the illusion of control. It has reduced my stress levels immensley. I am still practicing so still slip up on the odd occasion.. But i am determined, If I am to live this life.< I am going to make it a good experience, a happy and loving experience. I still struggle with demons of the past,, they seem to be multi faceted LOL! But i am ok with dealing with them now.. Like today i struggled big time in my head for some reason.. then i realised i was tired and really need to look after myself in that area.. As soon as i realised this I relaxed and the mind relaxed too!!!
Having loads of late nights is not good for me.. So for the next week I am off to bed early,, it helps my well being.
To fulfill my well being this week I am going to streak my hair with some bonde bits and re-do the hot pink bits. LOL!!
Starting to see grey in there LOL!! and i am getting early nights.
((((Lilacsky))) I think you need a hug too! something about your posts says to me you are not hundred percent either.. Hope you ok now!!
So for me, I got through all that suicidal stuff, BY understanding my well being.
what feeds my well being.. and just bit by but, started to look after myself .
I am definately not completely whole.. I think i have a long way to go, but i have learnt to accept inperfections, understand with compassion firstly for myself . and if i see fit i extend that to others.
I get the feeling of wanting to commit suicide, but to actually do it!! I dont get..
There is always another way to start making life better.
((((Section8)))) to you and your friend, i hope they are better now and are seeing that what they did to themselves is not a good thing , hopefullly they have started to get the help they need.
I just hope its sooner than later.
I just hope its sooner than later.
