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Post by existenceisadream on Sept 8, 2005 4:00:31 GMT -5
Sep. 7 Wed. To bed at about 3:40am. I wake several times through out the morning but I fall back to sleep remembering a dream every time but don’t record. I get up at 9:15am to record.
I’m at 3549 Esplanade (where my dad lived from when I was born till about 16 years old) and I’m arriving at the trailer behind my dads. I’m in the driveway and I think this is where Dean (my old roommate of 6 years) lives. I walk up to the back door to knock but I think before I do a car pulls up in the driveway and it’s a friend of Deans. I wave to the guy and maybe say that Deans not here but I’m not sure and he just backs out of the driveway and leaves. This makes me mad because of how Dean’s friend is so stuck up. I go into the house and I’m not sure what happens and I go out of a different exit. I’m walking into my back yard from here and I see Dean pull into the driveway I was just in but now I don’t want him to see me and I duck down and walk to my front door. I walk into the house and my dad is on the couch and some lady is here (dad’s girlfriend though I’ve never seen her and I don’t know who she is, though she looks like Nani from other worlds forum (I looked at peoples pictures on the forum hoping I could find them in my dreams) but now that I think about it she looks more like the girl that comes in Thursday nights at my work and orders a lamb kebob). My dad is mad at me for just walking into the house and is being a little bitch about it. One thing I notice is the carpet seems new (though I don’t know why I notice this). I sit on the couch and I think I leave because dad is just bitching at me for not knocking. I’m not sure what happens next because I kept waking and falling back to sleep with the same kind of stuff going on because I would be remembering the dream as I was falling back to sleep. I’m not sure of what’s going on but stuff happens and I’m really mad at my dad and I think I show back up at his trailer. Troy is here and he asks if I told some kind of outfit to find me. Like they’re supposed to come and rescue me. I guess they’re supposed to be coming for Troy also. I say yes I did call them but Troy thinks I didn’t or that they’re not coming. Dad is here too. (I’m not sure of what happens next or what but this is what I remember) I’m somewhere and I walk into a place where my dad is with the girl from the last dream and I totally interupt they’re conversation to say something I think is important. I think the girl was talking and my dad was listening with all of his attention. My dad gets mad at me for interrupting her and I get pissed again and leave. Now I’m raving mad as I leave.
(Once again I’m not sure of what happens from here but this next dream may be the same I’m not sure. Stuff happens but I’m not sure what.) I’m not sure of what happens all I know is that I or we make someone or maybe a couple of people really mad at us and they’re following us. I’m walking in 3549 (where my dad lived) down dads street to the street that leaves the trailer park. There’s an older lady in a motor powered wheel chair who’s pulling into the entrance of the park. I think to myself of how when I was a kid she would roll around here so fast in that thing (I don’t know who she is at all and don’t remember any lady in a wheel chair that lived here). I get to the exit and now I’m with several people. I know Sarah (my brothers girl friend) is one of the people but two other people are with us as well. We’re sitting outside the entrance where someone is supposed to be picking us up and we feel like the person is not going to show up. Now the people we or I pissed off are in the road behind us in a car and looking mad. We see the person we’re waiting for who’s driving a ghetto ice cream truck but he pulls into Shasta school and we’re like, so typical of him to go and try to make some money before picking us up(though I dont really know who he is in real life). We decide to walk down to him because the people behind us are mad at us and are freaking us out. We begin to walk and someone has cigarettes and I ask for one (I don’t smoke). I’m smoking it but there’s something wrong with the filter and it’s hitting weird. We get to the road to Shasta school and the truck is parked here. We see that the guy we’re waiting for is getting busted by some lady like a teacher or his mom. Now we feel fucked because now we can’t get the ride. The lady is walking him back towards his truck. There’s older kids playing on the jungle gyms. We begin to walk back towards 3549. We look back to see what’s going on and the guy is hanging from the monkey bars doing sit-ups and we believe it’s because he’s in trouble. Sarah says something about how he didn’t go to school for 7 days straight and something about how he was stealing food I’m not sure.
(The guy driving the ice cream truck I’m pretty sure is the blond guy from Freddy V.S. Jason who is smoking a J in the room where the snake creature comes into and smokes with him but turns into Freddy and kills him.)
I quit smoking pot a few days ago and so far it has come up everynight in my dreams though it normally never does. Normally when I decide to quit smoking weed I dream of people smoking and offering it to me and I always turn it down saying that I quit. This is a big reason why I've been able to record dreams with so much clarity and detail in the last three days. Though I've never had problems Ld'ing from smoking weed I've noticed my dream recall has been vey bad for a couple of months with few Ld's so I've decided I care more about my Ld'ing and dreams than smoking.
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Post by nani on Sept 8, 2005 5:43:11 GMT -5
hey again just shortly, because Im at (lots of) work, but thats truly amazing..I wonder..the "wheel-chair", I`ve been dreaming of a wheel-chair Tonight too hey, Im posting it soon into my thread. But ya know my mother often uses a wheel-chair since 6 years, but I can rememeber only 1 time to have dreamed of a wheel-chair in the last years..sounds like an interesting connection.. have to read your dream again and think about, very interesting cool. And it would be good to know something about your dad and your relationship to him to deeper understand this dream-serie I feel. lgn
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Post by existenceisadream on Sept 8, 2005 15:57:10 GMT -5
Very quickly because I have to be to work in 10 minutes. Nani I will go into my relationship with my dad later tonight after work. I am sooooooooo excited. My new sleeping schedule is creating wonders in the dream realm. I'll explain later. But basically I read the third chapter this morning before going back to sleep and experienced something wonderful. I basically have so much recorded and detail that I can only put a fraction on here so people will actually read it. I'll explain later. I basically passed the second gate of dreaming within 5 minutes of falling asleep after reading the chapter. I've passed the second gate before but not quite like this.
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Post by nani on Sept 8, 2005 16:50:26 GMT -5
Wow congrats congrats, Im so excited for you and Im looking forward to hear about your wonderful progress yeah !!! lgn
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Post by zayin on Sept 8, 2005 18:54:51 GMT -5
Right on brother sounds exciting! Way to leave us in suspence...geesh. lol. Hey I read in one of your dreams you had a Katana and were slashin' someone in the head lol. Anyways do you practise with Katanas or anything?
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Post by existenceisadream on Sept 9, 2005 18:34:48 GMT -5
Last night I typed huge post and right before I could send it my internet took a crap on me and wouldn't work. I hate it when this happens so I'm going to try it agian. Oh where to begin. I want to right about my LD in which I passed through the second gate of dreaming but there's so much more of regular dreaming that took place. First off like I had posted in another thread I've devised a new sleeping pattern after accidently getting up to go to work in the morning only to find out that I was suppossed to work the night shift. I was basically up for 3 hours before lying back down for a nap before work and my dreaming awareness was tremendous. This new sleeping schedule has been doing wonders for me. It only works for the part of the week in which I work nights though. Here's how yesterday morning went... I'll post a second post about the Ld in which I travel through the second gate of dreaming... I'm only going to record a fraction of the dreams because they're so long...
Sep. 8 Thu. To bed at 3:30am. Wake at 5:30 am for bathroom and record dream.
I’m in a helicopter in space with two guys on a mission. One guy is flying the aircraft while the other one and I are trying to get ready to leave the copter but we’re having troubles. I realize I don’t have my shoes on and we’re just not prepared. The one guy who’s not flying the copter goes to the door (it’s more like a plane than a helicopter but for some reason I feel it’s a helicopter) and I say “don’t you even dare open the door” and he says “of course I’m not going to” because this would mean us getting sucked out into space. I ask the pilot how much fuel we have left and he says just over half a tank. Plus he reminds me that we still need enough fuel to get “back”. (This statement is what makes me abort the mission) I want so much to go on the mission but decide we must abort the mission because of the lack of fuel. The other guy is mad because he thinks we can do it but the pilot again says that we need enough fuel to get back. The other guy is not pleased but understands. I think it’s me not having shoes on that screws up the mission because for some reason I’m having a hard time figuring out how to put them on. (The dream was intense when I thought the guy was going to open the door to the copter because I new it would mean certain death. I really wanted to go on the mission but the fuel situation made me abort. I must have been the captain because I was the one calling the shots.)
Then BTS(back to sleep) at 5:55am. I wake again at 7:30am and fall BTS remembering a dream. Wake back up at 7:45am and record thsese dreams...
I’m with Freddy(my roommate) in some unknown town and we’re sitting on the hood of a car or something outside of some building. It’s night and there’s a few other people out here as well. We’re drinking a beer and I tell Freddy that I’m not feeling well and haven’t for several days (I’m actually not really feeling well and haven’t for several days). I get of the car and lean against it and decide to walk down the block like 30 feet to the corner because it looks like there’s a bar there. Freddy follows me and says “you’re sick huh, that’s why you’re going to a bar”? I realize I left my beer at the car but I plan to get another at the bar. I go inside and I see Sean Green (kid I went to elementary school and junior high with) and I call out his name to him and he looks back at me but doesn’t say anything, just keeps walking. We’re walking up stairs that get to a platform and then does a 180 degree turn and goes up the opposite way. Gir (from the cartoon Invader Zim is with us and I realize people are going to find him strange. He stops on the stairs and does something (having to do with blood and a sweat shirt I think) and some other people walk up the stairs past us. We get to the bar which is small and on a balcony but indoors and there’s some girl with a bunch of her bills and crap spread out on the floor and this makes it hard to walk around. She says something about Gir ( I think that he can’t come in) and I command him to go back to the stairs and he does. I think to myself how he doesn’t always obey and that he could do whatever at anytime. Sean is here at the bar doing something very strange. He’s acting like he’s biting the bar tenders nipple. There’s a beer menu and I look at it for awhile and the cheapest beer is $2.50. Plus I see something that begins to say Jack Daniels but is cut off. I sit in a chair and then ask the bar tender if there’s any beers on tap but I see them before he reply’s. He says “Blackberry” and I say “Blackberry Wheat?” (a beer I used to drink and was really good till I got sick from it) and he says “no, it’s a complete different kind.” Gir has decided to come further into the bar again. (I wake here and fall back to sleep remembering the previous dream and fall right back into sleep into this dream...) I’m in the front parking lot of Rob’s apartment complex with Freddy outside of Freddy’s truck and there’s people after us. We’re kneeling on the ground and I somehow realize that as long as we don’t move that we’re invincible. There’s two older guys looking for us and they’re circling the truck and they seem to be looking right at us but just keep circling. There’s two more guys now who I believe to be cops and one I think is black. They’re trying to see us and can kind of because I’m ever so slightly swaying back and forth so this enables them to see us. I try hard not to sway but it’s difficult. The people give up and head towards Rob’s apartment. The four people are almost out of eye sight but we decided to get up while the other non cop people can still see us and I jump in the drivers side and I hurry to unlock the passengers side for Freddy. I’m thinking to myself that we should had waited till the people were out of site because now they’ll be back after us but this makes it more exciting. We pull up to the exit and there’s cars coming from both sides but I realize we have no time to wait so I pull out and head towards East Ave. We go into a fish tail almost going out of control. I realize the ground is very icy and this is making this happen. I keep fish tailing and it’s hard not to. We’re down more between the school and East Ave. and I hear someone say “bats” and there’s a bunch of very low flying bat looking creatures though they look more like dinosaur birds. They seem to be flying in slow motion. Two "birds" hit the front windshield. I ask Freddy if he’s seeing this but he seems uninterested. We pull down a road and some crazy looking guy who seems to be out of Alice in Wonderland is coming the opposite way on some kind of crazy vehicle almost like a horse and carriage type thing and he has a crazy look on his face like I got you guys now. We go past him a bit and think we’re fucked because the ground is too icy to drive now. Now I’m running carrying a radio flyer wagon type thing with Freddy in it. I’m sort of ditching the guy because it seems like he’s not following but I get mad and tell Freddy he should run as well but he says no. I say screw it then and put down the wagon and tell him he can get caught if he wants and I continue to run but Freddy isn’t moving so I go back for him and carry him in the wagon again and continue to run but I feel the guy isn’t coming for us at all.
(My thoughts on this dream; I've known Freddy for a long time and I know that he's really slow at a lot of stuff he does but I've been roommates with him for a couple of months now and I didn't realize how lazy he is. He's perfectly content with getting off work everyday and just watching TV till he goes to bed. Plus he does no house cleaning or never washes a dish which pisses me off because I'm left having to do it all. So I think in the dream how I'm having to carry him when the people are after us is like how I'm having to do it all in waking life. Plus the part where I decide to leave him to run for himself hoping he will but he doesn't is like how in waking life I'll decide to leave stuff for him to do or clean hoping he'll do it only to find out he's just sitting there in a daze watching TV so I end up having to do it anyways)
So the post isn't too long I'm going to make a second post for part two of this morning.
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Post by existenceisadream on Sept 9, 2005 18:52:00 GMT -5
Part two... Finish recording the last posts dream at 8:20am and get up and shower, get hair cut, eat shitty McDonalds, all the while bike riding. I get back home and go on-line and then read the third chapter of Art of Dreaming. BTS at 11am. I fall to sleep fast maybe by 11:05am almost having a WILD but I wake right before and then fall to sleep. I wake at 11:15am from this LD in which I pass through the second gate of dreaming according to the art of dreaming...
I’m somewhere watching a baseball game standing in a line with people on the side of the field and I think to myself of how I used to pitch and hit people in their head (I never used to bean people when I was in little league, I don’t think I ever hit anybody in any of my pitching ). I turn around thinking of my past and of how much I enjoyed playing organized baseball and this is the first time I realize I’m with a bunch of people in a line and I see Chad Keekler (a guy who was on my team back in my best years of little league baseball) and I say “hey you were on my team” and standing next to him is Jared (another guy from the same team). They just sort of look at me with a not too interested face. I start to gain awareness of the strangeness of the situation but the dreamscape quickly fades. And goes into this… I pull up to Jerms (best friend) house and get out of Freddy’s truck. I get on my cell phone and call Jerm. I’m looking at the way I parked Freddy’s car and it looks like I was drunk as hell when I parked it and I think I should park it again. Jerm answers the phone and I tell him I’m outside of this house and I realize that I’m dreaming. I tell Jerm that I’m dreaming wondering amusingly what his reaction is going to be and he just says “OK”. I’m about to say something else but the dreamscape fades and I remain conscious through the transition and I arrive in the living room of 1245 where Freddy is and he’s pulling the blinds shut to separate the dining room from the living room (there really is no blinds here in waking life, these blinds in waking life are where the sliding glass door is). I’m very amused by this since I’m lucid and I ask Freddy what he’s doing. (I decide not to tell Freddy It’s a dream because this seems to cause confusion) He tells me he’s reorganizing the house to make a different atmosphere. I turn and look at the living room to see it’s totally different with everything switched all around. The TV is by the front door and with some big black thing to lay on and big chair and love seat are gone. The Couch is where the TV should be but the coffee table is still in it’s right place. I decide to sit on the couch and grab a paper and pen so I can draw how the living room looks so I can remember it better when I wake. I begin to draw the room but the dream again starts to fade and shifts and I don’t lose any of the consciousness but instead go with it and feel myself going with the energy and when I look up from the paper I was just drawing on I’m in the Safeway Plaza parking lot near Super Cuts (where I got my hair cut this morning before coming back home to sleep). Freddy is here and the dreamscape is getting harder to focus on and there’s a tree above me that looks like the trees from around my apartment complex. I think to myself that what I just read in he art of dreaming before going to sleep is happening to me and I'm going through the second gate of dreaming though I'm not creating the dreamscapes but rather following where they take me withour losing consiousness. I remember that I wanted to seek out a scout or an in-organic being and I turn and walk to the road but I feel my dream clarity isn’t good enough. When I get to the road this guy jumps down off of a cement block maybe ten feet high but I think it’s just Freddy so I don’t pay him much attention. Besides the dreamscape is losing all of it’s clarity and is fading. The dream fades and this time I feel my energy body arriving back into my physical body. I keep my eyes closed for about ten seconds hoping that I’m in sleep paralysis and that I’ll be able to go back into the LD but I know I’m awake and I open my eyes and am very excited because I know I just passed the second gate of dreaming. After recording this LD I go back to sleep and almost into another WILD. I'm close to where I just was in the last LD and I'm walking behind a lady with her young son of maybe 8 years old. They're slowing me down so I begin to walk around them and this is when I realize I'm just starting a dream but I gain too much awareness too early and I wake from this. There's more dream but I think I've put alot down alreaddy so I'll leave it at that. I highly suggest to try out this approach at sleeping if possible. Go to sleep and only sleep for like 3 or 4 hours and then get up, take a shower, go for a bike ride, go out to breakfast, and then read about dreaming. After about 3 hours has passed lay back down and go to sleep. This is much like the wake back to sleep technique but it takes it further by tricking your body that you're actually getting up by taking a shower, excercising, eating breakfast and being up for 3 hours versus only like an hour. It's easy to fall back to sleep because you only let your body sleep for 3 or 4 hours so it's tired but the level of awareness is so much higher in your dreams
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Post by nani on Sept 10, 2005 17:17:51 GMT -5
thats cool, so cool, so very cool, congrats again. This does encourage me yeah !!! and as I feel myself stuck a bit I will try that what you`ve recommended. Looking forward to hear more and experience more. lgn
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Post by zayin on Sept 10, 2005 19:15:46 GMT -5
Thats a really cool experience. I will try that doing that for sure, I already get up and go back to sleep but just for a few minuttes. One thing I've read about trying in a lucid dream, and since you seem to have great lucidity, is to go to sleep in your dream but in the same position as you originally fell asleep in. This is said to be unpredictable, but always cause more vivid dreams. I think it is out of his other book 'Power of Silence'. I've been trying to do this but always forget to go to sleep in the same position. The one time I remembered the position, people from my dream kept me from laying down, then I lost attention.....wierd.
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Post by existenceisadream on Sept 11, 2005 0:49:07 GMT -5
Thanks for the reply's Nani and Incubus. Incubus about the going to sleep in a LD in the same position... I used to do something like this a lot when I first descovered OBE's from Ld's but the only difference is I don't think I normally laid in the same position. After becoming lucid I would find a "dream bed" and lay in it and then project out from there inside the dream. Most of the time when doing this I would end up back in my body into sleep paralysis and do a fully conscious projection. I used to experiment much more with this several months ago but as of late I'm just trying to get back the awareness I had a few months ago before I started slipping though in the last week it's just been incredible the clarity and awareness I've had. It's hard to wake up and not remember a dream now. A couple of days ago I must had spent at least 3 hours recording dreams.
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Post by existenceisadream on Sept 11, 2005 1:48:55 GMT -5
Something very frightening (but great upon waking) happened to me today that tops any other dream, OBE, or sleep paralysis episode I've ever had. I've been feeling a little ill lately so after getting off work today I took a nap from 4-6pm. I woke and checked my messages on the answering machine and one was from my roommate saying he was coming home and soon. Still feeling very tired I went in my room leaving my door open so if I did fall to sleep my roommate could wake me and I lied on my back (because it's the hardest position to fall to sleep from) to just rest because I didn't want to fall back to sleep because I was supposed to go somewhere with my roommate. I was so tired I felt myself keep drifting off but my neighbors being really loud would keep waking me up right before I would go completely under. Here's what happens next... I feel I'm totally awake just lying on my back resting and I feel the astral vibrations start up mainly in my head and my third eye and crown chakra. This surprises me because I can't believe I'm having the vibrations in an awake state. So I decide to try to project. I push all the vibrations to my third eye and try to visualize a portal to project through but I can't leave my body. I try this several times but my head is really starting to hurt and I feel I'm injuring myself. I even move one of my legs to assure myself that I'm awake and feeling the vibrations. Next I try to float out of body and after this doesn't work I try the roll out technique and this almost works but I feel my astral energy is just too weak to project plus I feel I'm too awake. Here's where it gets scary and I start to freak out... I hear my roommate come into the house and now I'm really trying to project with even more intent because I really want to watch what he does so I can "wake" and see if I can verify stuff that he did to see just how "true" the projection is. But after trying several more times and my third eye is really starting to hurt and I feel I may be damaging it I try to yell out to him but I can't. I try to open my eyes and can barely see my room and my roommate comes in my room and is above me and I'm trying to make a distressed face so he'll "wake" me or pull me out of whatever is happening to me. I finally think screw this I'm getting up and I finally roll out of my body onto the floor but I believe I'm actually awake. I feel like I'm almost blacked out drunk or something and I crawl on the floor out of my room and into the living room. I'm freaking out because I can't breath and I'm choking on my own saliva. I go to the living room and my roommates leaving out the front door and he leaves the front door open. I'm trying to call out to him but it just comes out in muffles through the choking on my saliva. He's gone for maybe a minute I'm not sure and comes back into the house with "supplies" and I assume he see me on the floor and help me but instead he leaves again. Again he comes back into the apartment with more "supplies" and now I've managed to sit up and I'm slobbering all over the floor trying to breath beginning to cry. He picks me up and puts me over his shoulder and carries me to my bed and lays me down and sits at the edge of my bed. I feel he must think I just got wasted after work but I'm very confused of why I'm in this condition and am still crying. I try to speak to him but am still choking and can't produce words. I'm not sure of what happens next but.. I wake up for reals and am filled with a huge sense of relief and amazement that I had fallen asleep realizing it was all a dream and the realization that I was actually in sleep paralysis while trying to project and not awake. I really thought I was awake trying to project so when I finally got out of body I thought I was really awake but just completely incapacitated for some unknown reason and this and the choking was the main reason for my terrified state. I quickly jump out of bed and yell out my roommates name after letting out a deep scream from relief and having just gone through what I went through. My roommate says "Yea" with a concerned sound in his voice and I walk to his room which is a few feet from mine and I ask him when did he get home and he said maybe five minutes ago. I then ask him if he heard me screaming at all in my sleep and he said no. He said he went in my room and didn't want to wake me because I looked so peaceful sleeping (if he only knew). I then began to explain to him what just happened and I asked him if he made several trips into the house bringing "supplies" leaving the front door open each time. He looks at me with a stunned face and Say's " Yea, but how would you know that". I then tell him about the part of crawling to the living room and watching him leaving and coming back in several times with more supplies. The thing is is that we're leaving to go camping tomorrow after work and we're supposed to go get some camping supplies today but I guess instead he just went to his parents house and got supplies and when he came in the house the first time with the first load he came into my room to get me to help but saw me sleeping so peacefully and decided to do it all himself. Crazy shit. This is the most "real" OBE I've ever had because of all the things I verified afterwords though it was very confusing and I thought I was really awake during most of it even with the vibrations and trying to exit my body. The pain in my third eye was really bad and this was the main reason I tried a different exit because I thought I was hurting my chakra bad. As for the choking. Because I've been a little ill and from lying on my back I believe mucus had built up and was causing this choking effect. Anyways, this is one of the most intense things to ever happen to me during a "rest" but even though I was freaking out I was so happy after I woke to have experienced it.
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Post by zayin on Sept 11, 2005 13:36:02 GMT -5
That is great, congrats! I can never leave while aware it sucks. I get, like you, strong vibrations in my third eye, almost like I'm spinning around. I have had these vibrations for years and years, but never knew what they were. Doctors have even ran EKG's EEG's, and different testings, but never said a word to me about it. Since I realized what it is, it is not so intense, but I love the feeling. It used to feel like I was going to die, like I was going to get sucked out of existence. In Carlos' books he says that when the assemblage point is making a big shift it will make you feel like you are going to die, or make you feel quite sick. He says it is actually dangerous not to know that it is simply energy from our energy body that is taking us to a new state of awaresness. Crazy. He doesn't refer to any gate of dreaming as an OBE, but really one of them is. Real dreaming, as he calls it is an OBE I believe. He says other dreams are not important, but I disagree totally. Dreams are always in a different state of awareness, and, I think, is our spirit (higher self) communicating to us. I think every dream is important, and should be recollected. If not just for our progress and understanding about dreams, and for our progression. Anyways the ramble-king ends his babble. Congrats again on the gate of dreaming!
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Post by existenceisadream on Sept 11, 2005 19:03:58 GMT -5
Yea it was a crazy experience. It's even more crazy because yesterday I had the most intense OBE I've ever had and this morning I had the most intense non-lucid dream I've ever had. Just totally insane. My dream world has been intense with massive dream recall to the point to where I can't even record them all because it would take like half the day. Well I have no time becuase I'm taking off to the coast in about a half an hour. I'll be back in a few days. Talk to you all later.
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Post by nani on Sept 12, 2005 18:23:32 GMT -5
hahaha Incubus: "the ramble-king ends his babble".. crackup of laughter looool
hey existencisadream, btw I still like to write your entire name, very good affirmation over and over, but I just only wanted to say, have a nice and save trip and we`re looking forward to welcome you back in some days, lgn
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Post by existenceisadream on Sept 13, 2005 22:21:45 GMT -5
Thanks Nani The trip went even better than expected though we're only gone for a couple of days. I just love the ocean. Being on the beach puts me in a trance that I can't achieve anywhere else. I spent hours on the beach meditating and doing energy work and spent hours talking with my roommate about the concepts of the art of dreaming and coming across some revelations that just blew my mind of the possibilities. We took about an eight hour hike just walking down the beach but stopping every now and then, meditating and discussing the art of dreaming and how much it reflects to so many aspects of life. I'm beginning to realize and feel how much meditation can achieve such higher states of consciousness and through meditation of how much we can learn to move, adjust, and control our assemblage points. I really needed this trip and now have so much to work with. I now am going to learn tai chi because I think it's such a great technique for adjusting the assemblage point. I worked a lot with seeing auras and could see the birds very well especially when they were flying. It was like this egg shape around them that spun in circles and was so peaceful. Another thing that happened that was so cool was this guy was walking down the beach doing what seemed to be a form of a power walk but he was like flapping his arms but in a circular movement doing one very forceful circle with each step and each step was very forceful. When his arms went down by his sides it looked like he would pull up massive energy up and around him repeating this frequently with each step. His aura was just incredible that just like the birds spun around him in a circular motion but changed color frequently. I just watched him come from one end of the beach to the other end which must had been about 30 minutes. The energy level to be able to do that without his arms growing tired. Just crazy.
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Post by existenceisadream on Sept 14, 2005 16:35:15 GMT -5
September 14 Okay my dream recall and awareness is better than ever so I'm going to try to make this short because I could seriously type pages upon pages. I'm only going to record one LD and one semi-LD. My trip left me tired so I slept about 9 hours last night and woke recorded dreams and read this forum and then laid back down after being up for about 2 hours. It took maybe 10 minutes to fall to sleep and then I woke about 15 minutes later for these dreams. I'll shorten them for this post. One thing though is that before lying down I decide that when (not if) I become lucid I'm going to work at viewing the auras of things around me and not just auras but the energy radiating from these things. Plus I want to do a energy raising meditation much like I do in waking life but with my eyes open to not lose the dream scape. The other thing that's going through my mind while falling to sleep is that I want to hang out with my older brother (in waking life not in the dream so I can tell him of my progress with my awareness levels and try to help him out with his life, he's a very depressed person who drinks constantly and it upsets me that he can't get over what ever it is that keeps him that way)
After becoming lucid because I'm back at an old job I don't work at any more and I realize this I walk into the kitchen of this place and see a lady. I walk up to her thinking maybe she could be a guide but she looks terrified and I almost feel like she may be in a dream and that she is very lost and confused. I walk to where I'm maybe a foot away from her and look deep into her eyes and decide to leave her be and I walk out into the lobby of my old work (which btw is Chuck E Cheese (pizza place with lots of games, kids and fun hahaha) I remember what i wanted to do and I leave out the front doors and there's three little girls all in one pair of pants which is very strange but they seem to be very happy and I pat one on her head on my way out. Once outside I look at the trees and can see more of an energy around them than an aura. I do this for a bit and then decide to focus on just one tree. I can do this for only so long before the dreamscape begins to falter and I have to quickly shift my attention and around so the clarity comes back. I then remember about the energy raising and I go into that. It's weird because I go into the same thing I would do in waking life but with my eyes open. I begin to create a ball of energy in my hands and begin to left it up over me so I can release it upon my body and pretty much bath in it but by trying to focus on the ball of energy the dreamscape again begins to falter and fade and this time it's too late and I can't save it.
I end up in another dream in which I enter into an apartment where my older brother is and I begin to talk with him of all my discoveries of recently. About the concepts of the art of dreaming and a lot of other stuff. He just gets mad and says "fuck the concepts" (much like he would do in waking life) and he seems upset. my awareness is very strong because I tell him I'm pretty sure that we're in a dream right now but I'm just going to go with it instead of controlling it because I want to teach him to be happy. Now there's another guy here who is about my age and he pulls out a huge bag of marijuana and says that he'll trade it to me for "it". I'm not sure what "it" is. ( I recently quit smoking not long ago and I know this is the reason for my new levels of awareness) So I say do you mean my new awareness? And before he can respond I say, "that's just what I'm trying to teach you all, this awareness is far greater than any drug can can give you. Than the guy goes even further and says he'll throw in some cocaine as well with the deal (I have a friend that just moved back from across the country who is into coke now and loves it so much he wants me to do it with him and I try to explain to him that I'm truly happy now and don't need any artificial awareness stealing drugs and he just doesn't get it and won't stop trying). Now I feel this guy is the devil and once again I tell him that I've transcended into a new level of being and that through meditation and dream work I'm truly happy with myself and have so much more to explore that drugs can't help help.
The dream continues a bit more with very high awareness and half lucidity but because I want to teach my older brother to be happy I don't try to change things at all in it. I think this dream represents how it seems that everybody around me that I know is not happy with their lives and is into drugs to make them feel better when in fact it just clouds their awareness and makes it that much harder to be happy. I want so much to change my friends points of view but realize there's nothing I can do but let them be and eventually change themselves though I don't think they will. It's frustrating to have this awareness and to see others around me not progressing or transcending at all. But I realize I don't want to be like a preacher and force my views on others so I just speak my mind and let them take what they can from it.
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Post by nani on Sept 14, 2005 17:01:32 GMT -5
wow that is really so insghtful to read existenceisadream, Im excited for your progress of such amazing awareness you have archieved, I really could and would love listen to more, on top its truly helpful for myself ya know. And yeees I can comprehend so very well how you feel about your brother and friends ouou.. but its so great that you have that insight about let them have their own experiences and their own growth in their own time, you just can be an ideal pattern/example and be there for them when they need you - and thats a lot !! lgn
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Post by existenceisadream on Sept 17, 2005 2:57:41 GMT -5
September 16 I've been taking a break from recording dreams because it's been very time consuming but I still have lots of recall when I wake up. Here's a piece from a dream this morning.
I'm at my old house where my grandma lived for most of my life. I leave the house and walk down the driveway and as I'm doing this I think to myself I should check the mail because I no longer live here and it would be interesting to see what's in it. It's night and I decide to not bother to check the mail because for some reason I think I won't be able to read it. (I'm semi lucid but for some reason don't go with it and just go with the dream) The house I moved into after my grandma died is right next door (which it really is in real life and my old roommate still lives there) and I think I should check that mail box too but don't. I'm walking down the street and see a black cat cross in front of me and go into the neighbors yard. I watch it and it lays on its back in eh tall grass and starts kind of kicking its feet in the air and then levitates itself about 5 feet into the air. I'm watching this in awe and the cat repeats this several times. I eventually go back to the house to get the people I was with to go out and watch the cat do this but I'm not sure if we go back out.
I think after becoming semi lucid this cat was a part of me or a guide of some sort trying to make me go into a higher level of lucidity but it didn't work. It's like the cat was astral projecting in front of me but to me it looked more like levitating. I'm not sure.
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Post by existenceisadream on Sept 17, 2005 20:31:38 GMT -5
Here's a lucid dream I had last night right after falling to sleep. Sep. 17 To bed at 1:45am. Really tired and probably fall to sleep in maybe 5 minutes (which doesn't' happen unless I'm really tired) and I wake up at 1:55 am from this LD. Only ten minutes had passed from the time of lying down.
I'm walking up the driveway to my old landlords house (which is also the house of my best friend from childhood (who later became my roommate) and there's a cop at the gate leading to the backyard and he's checking peoples ID's as they pass through. I walk through I think to myself that he won't check mine because I didn't shave so I look older (before going to bed I decided I wasn't going to shave the next day before work because the owners to the business are out of town). I go into the back yard and there's a ping pong table set up. The cop comes over and trys to play me ping pong but when I hit the ball I hit it passed him and into the grass. He goes and gets it but when he comes back he's no longer dressed in cop clothes and I realize I just went to bed and it's a dream. (this pars kind of funny because of my non- chalant attitude) I toss the paddle behind me to someone and say "here, have fun" in a sarcastic attitude (because I'm tired of trying to talk to the people I'm with after becoming lucid because they never seem to "get it". I walk to the back door to the house because I want to see if I can find my old landlords. I open the door but it's pitch black inside. I walk in anyways but by doing this the darkness makes me feel like I'm going to lose the dream and I turn around and jump back out into the daylight. Now the dreamscape is starting to try to fade and I quickly glance around at things to try to stabilize it and it works for a little but the dreamscape begins to fade and I go into the chant "remain conscious" over and over again and feel my consciousness come back into my body and for a very short amount of time I feel the astral vibrations but then I feel my consciousness fully arrive back in my body and I wake up and record the dream.
This happens to me quite often where I go to sleep really tired and wake no more than 10-15 minutes later either from an Ld or OBE.
I'm really tired right now after work and am lying down to sleep for a couple of hours so I may be recording some more OBE's or LD's not to long from now!
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Post by existenceisadream on Sept 18, 2005 20:07:29 GMT -5
Yesterday after work I was really tire and laid down to sleep a couple of hours but ended up sleeping four hours with a dream that wasn't too interesting. I stayed up till about 3:30am and smoked an herb called Calea Zacatechichi (It's a dream herb that the Meso-American tribes used to smoke and drink in a tea before sleep and is supposed to produce significantly more meaningful dreams) I bought on line. It was my first experiment with it and it doesn't taste very good like smoking a cigarette (and I don't' like cigs at all) but I smoked most of it and then read the art of dreaming for about a half an hour then laid down. The herb really has no effect in the awake state but is supposed to in meditation and dreams. Anyways here's my experience though it wasn't anything I couldn't do without it except for how fast I was able to enter into sleep. I lay down at exactly 3:55am and wake at 4am. Only 5 minutes pass which is very fast for me to be able to fall to sleep. Here's the dream... I'm a backseat passenger in a car with a girl I don't' know driving and someone else in the front seat. We're driving in my town and I'm looking up into the mountains in the distance and I notice there's snow on them. I think this is strange because it's still fall and then I notice that there's snow on the sides of the road (and it rarely ever snows here) and the girl in the front seat is tripping out over this as well. I then realize that I had just laid down for sleep and become lucid. It gets to where the whole road is now covered in the snow for some reason I'm lying down in the backseat and I can't get up to view the snow but I really want to. I feel my consciousness shift back into body and I feel the astral vibrations for a moment before waking up. This has been happening to me a lot (without the herb) where I lay down for sleep and wake within 10-15 minutes from a Ld or OBE where I only lose consciousness for a moment to maybe a few minutes before gaining it back. As I laid in bed before falling to sleep I felt a cool breeze coming from my window and I think this triggered the snow dream. I do think this herb helped me fall into sleep much faster somehow and I think the next time I try it I will use it during a wake back to sleep day so I use it during my more conscious sleep.
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