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Post by nikkineil6 on Jun 2, 2005 1:52:58 GMT -5
just wanted to tell everyone hello and introduce myself. i'm a mother of 2 living in a small community in northeast alabama. since the passing of my husband three years ago i've been doing alot of soul searching, researching, and wondering. i hope to learn here and to maybe be of help to others along the way
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Jun 2, 2005 17:57:34 GMT -5
Oh my god, nikki, you would not believe this but I want you to read my last dream I just wrote down, I dreamed of a woman in alabama.. and when I saw your post I was thinking whoa thats strange..hehe.. maybe theres a connection here..?? heres the dream lilacsky.proboards39.com/index.cgi?action=display&board=dreams&thread=1112799388&start=30again welcome nikkie, I am thankful you joined us..and we all are soul searching..i hope you find what your looking for..
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Jun 2, 2005 18:07:58 GMT -5
by the way the woman had dark hair, and she looked very sad..and she seemed to be poor or not well off, does any of the things represent you??just curious
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Post by nikkineil6 on Jun 2, 2005 22:05:16 GMT -5
yep,
that kinda does ring a bell. lol considering i have dark hair and many other things that i let make me think i was supposed to be sad. and for awhile i did struggle with hard times trying to raise two sons who were five and six when their father committed suicide. but i'm trying to learn from the past mistakes and leave the regret behind. the past is the past to mourn over it only wastes today, to learn from it, could save the future.
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Jun 2, 2005 22:13:39 GMT -5
wow this is interesting, and Im sorry to hear about your husband, I also agree with you that life is now, it is hard to live in the now, but when we do, we are truely living.. I will help you in any way I can..just let me know..I am willing to listen.. I wonder if I actually saw you, how dark is your hair. this is a bit freaky, I mean I have done this before but never with anyone on the internet ya know..well in anycase, Im happy you made your way here!
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Post by nikkineil6 on Jun 2, 2005 22:19:15 GMT -5
the house in your dream would be the perfect metaphor for my marriage. in the early morning hours before chad died he almost ended my life instead. i remeber we were outside and he was choking me. i remeber seeing something like swirls of fog passing back and forth between us and around our legs. next thing i remember is hearing my children hollering and me trying to wake myself up and having to struggle within myself to get my body to respond.
who knows maybe i found my way here so that all the great work and help you give here and help me to build a stronger foundation on which to build my family's spiritual house.
jeana
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Post by nikkineil6 on Jun 2, 2005 22:23:53 GMT -5
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Jun 2, 2005 22:25:40 GMT -5
wow, hmm so was this an obe? or did this realy happen,? I will do my best to help you, I know that going through such hardships can easily take the life,love and spririt right out of you, since we try to understand these things, and life itself is hard, I know that I try my best to make the little things count, perhaps we can chat in the chat room sometime.. so if you don't mind Jeana how long ago was this happening?? I will keep you in my prayers and if it turns out we have some type of connection, perhaps I can exstend my energy to you..in differant ways, I will try..that is what I do hear I help people I can't help myself much lol but I can help others.. ill speak with ya soon.
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Post by nikkineil6 on Jun 2, 2005 22:32:49 GMT -5
it was 3 years ago april 16. and now i understand for the future of my children and myself as awful as it sounds to say. we're much better off. i'm at a point in my life where i'm the happiest with myself than ever before. i feel there is something out there for me, i wasn't put here to go through these terrible lessons just for the heck of it. i have to remeber what i went through and what i learned that helped me to get to this place so that i may help someone else along the way.
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Jun 3, 2005 6:10:28 GMT -5
well I can understand that completely, since my dad died and honestly, he was no father to me ever and I guess I feel as you do..and my mom raised four kids by herself.. so I can undserstand, I also feel that that I am so close to my mom because it was just us and her, and perhaps you feel the same about your kids. I am happy to hear that you are doing well and are at your happiest with yourself, it is important in life to love ourselves, because if we don't, we live a life that is empty, that has nothing real to hold on to ya know.. Im sure there are many things waiting for you!! I was wondering what your interests in the forum are? spirituality? and thing else??
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Jun 3, 2005 12:02:16 GMT -5
I don't know how but I managed to not see the picture untill now..lol, wow, well in my dream there was pretty much nothing around.. and you look very similiar to the woman in my dreams, though I can't see your face that well, the figure and hair matches, and who is that handsome man with you??
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Post by nikkineil6 on Jun 3, 2005 12:14:04 GMT -5
spiritually yes was the main reason, but i've always had an affinity for these type of things anyhow. i've had lucid dreams since i was a child, only i thought that was the way everybody dreamt. if it's still and quiet i can hear like a radio playing in the background and hear every word of the song and it be a song i've never heard. and there's alot of other stuff that before i never knew what it really was becasue of growing up in a super strict religious background. so i also came here to learn and try to develp some of these traits more.
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Jun 3, 2005 12:31:31 GMT -5
cool, I look forward to hearing more of your experiences, ah music, the sound of the soul..yes I hear music as well, mostly I hear it in my dreams, and sometimes Im even playing the music.. so have you ever had an obe?? would you like to learn that? I think that having obe's also enhances these natural abilites we all have, and opens the door even more to psychic knowledge, dreams do this as well, but with obe's I think you are in that psychic level or realm of consciosness. and in dreams your almost there..so its highly sensitive as well..the obe realm that is.. well if you have any questions or would like specific help on something let me know..
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Post by nani on Jun 5, 2005 19:20:31 GMT -5
Hello nikkineil6, heartly welcome to the forum. Really strong connections and correlations in between you and Ronni, thats amazing and fantastic. I still have to go through all the new posts first, cause I was not here for some days. So looking forward to hear and exchange more. love_growth nani
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Jun 5, 2005 19:32:51 GMT -5
nani, sweetie, Im happy you made it!!
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Post by nikkineil6 on Jun 12, 2005 6:22:16 GMT -5
thank you for the warm welcome. i'm sorry i haven't been in touch in awhile. umm let's see ball tournements, extra hours at work, kids, and my sister-in-law in the processing of moving away from her husband and today a shower for his son and his bethrothed that have already moved. so i guess i blackslid and let myself make excuses. lol
i do have a uplifting story from yesterday though. i went to our neighborhood metaphysical store(which in the back woods of bama is at the flea market). i was trying to find a book to help me connect with the spirits in my house. it was built from the old gym of the local school. high ceilings, bir rooms, loads of energy. well once again ruthie had to set me on the path. she went to the shelves, reached for a book, and said this is the one you need.
boy was she right. the name of the book is The Magical Household" i could feel she was right. as i was riding home i began to thumb the book. the first page i flipped to was about protecting your home from prowlers. that hit home big. the next was to end tiresome visits
as i flipped more through the book i found subjects to help my sister-in-law and nephew. what made it better was that i had already picked up alot of the stuff needed to help us all obtain the peace, sereneity, and love we all want for our children. it's fixin'(yep i'm southren) to be a rough couple of weeks and i need to put extra, extra effort into my meditation and my state of being for myself and others.
i bought a rainstick from a lady who is the same member of the clan my boys belong too. well everytime at work if i went outside trish would turn the stick over and over. before i would make it back in, i got soaked. so when she went out i gave it a try. needless to say they took it away from us becasue neither could ever get dry.
hope the day finds you at peace with yourself, and maybe tomorrow you can add another to the list.
jeana
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Jun 12, 2005 8:15:52 GMT -5
thats great Jeana, guess what I have that book lol, in fact I gave it to my older sister to read,becasue she has spirits in her home and she also wanted to make the house more safe of negativity,thats a great book ,now i want it back lol thats cool Jeana, im happy things are looking up..for you, and perhaps fate is seeking you...which I beleive happens just when we think all is lost..
and don't worry about slacking lol on the forum its quite alright ,we all have lives here, well everyone but me haha..
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Post by nikkineil6 on Jun 12, 2005 9:10:07 GMT -5
the handsome fella, still in denial that he's reached man stage, is my nephew. i put that pic up the day we almost lost him in a car wreck, about a year after chad. he's more like one of my best friends instead of a nephew. matter of fact here he comes now. i let him borrow my new jeep to drive to work last nite9yeah he wrecked again)he's the only one i've let drive it w/o me. i'm sitting here now looking at about $250 worth of stuff i got for his and his girlfriends house warming shower.
p.s. when you have time would you mind reading the lastest entry in my dream journal and give me and opinion. and that's only if you feel to do so, i understand how it is when lots of ppl can use a little opinion at the same time.
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Post by nikkineil6 on Jun 12, 2005 9:13:11 GMT -5
well well now that is cool. if she learns any little secrets i missed tell her to pass 'em on. lol
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Jun 12, 2005 9:24:05 GMT -5
lol, thats cool Jeana, your nephew is lucky to have you!! and sure thing about the tips, and I think I already replied to your journal!
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