Gavs - The Art of Dreaming Journal

[Gav]

(First record for the night of Sunday 21st of Aug)

[Gav]

Time : Morning of Monday 22nd of August : 3:00am – 8:00am GMT(London)
Sleep : Disturbed and Fragmented, Insomnia.
Position : Laid on Back.

Laid on back all night as this induces the lightest sleep in me, and provides the best opportunity for interesting activity. Remained aware all night and never fully crossed over into dream, although had many bouts of split awareness.

received visuals often of two glowing circles rotating in different directions, both contained a small point on their circumference like a tap root, I was trying very hard to get both of the circles to halt spinning so that their profiles matched. I believe both these circles represented different levels of me and matching them would allow me to dream/exit.

Was awoken from this trance/dream by a loud smashing sound coming from the kitchen, I presumed this to be hypnogogic audio and did not investigate till the morning. Nothing was broken or disturbed in the kitchen. My sister confirmed the noise from the middle of the night, so we both heard it.

Pretty un-eventful night, although have been suffering with insomnia for the last week or so, this is usually a good sign of some oncoming activity.

[Gav]

Time : Morning of Tuesday 23rd of August : 00:00am – 6:00am GMT(London)
Sleep : Disturbed and Fragmented, Insomnia.
Position : Laid on Back, side, anything to try to sleep.

Another really uneventful night, no sleep or very little, this is almost two weeks solid of insomnia now so this must end soon!!

I do usually experience a lot of interesting activity during periods like this, so fingers crossed for some dream sleep tonight, even if short lived.

[Gav]

Time : Morning of Wednesday 24nd of August : 00:30am – 7.00am GMT(London)
Sleep : Disturbed and Fragmented, Insomnia.
Position : Laid on left side.

Insomnia is wearing off, I had short spell of dream in about my last hour before getting up for work. I was low in awareness and the only thing that I really remember from the dream is being with a lot of people whom I went to school with years ago. We were all in a living room, and everyone was ill.

A remedy was being passed round and it involved dropping white powder onto water in a bowl, which produces a smoke, which when inhaled releved the symptoms and made people feel happy.

[Gav]

Time : Morning of Thursday 25th of August : 00:30am – 7.00am GMT(London)
Sleep : Peaceful and Heavy
Position : Mostly left side

Dream that I had inherited a huge house in a park in a part of the city that I was strangely familiar with, yet could not specifically remember any time I had been there.

A gang of unruly teens hang around in the park and are constantly causing me trouble by attacking the house or my dogs.

I manage to befriend them though and the dream ends on a happy note.

Pretty standard dream stuff- persecution, materiel worries etc!!

But.. I am dreaming again so I am now looking forward to getting back on form - No more insomnia for this bunny!!!

[Gav]

Time : Morning of Friday 26th of August : 00:30am – 7.00am GMT(London)
Sleep : Continuous and heavy
Position : Laid on left side.

Much better sleep!! Had a very long dream again contained lots of old friends from places I used to live. During a get together I found that I could levitate, and displayed my new found skill much to my friend’s delight, by hovering around on the ceiling.

Lucidity followed after realizing the madness of this situation, although I never fully controlled the full dream environment or escaped it.

I took my friend to play gold and we had a long conversation about the death of his mother (She died of cancer in real life), I listened to the things that where troubling him and offered to him a considerate opinion of what happens when people die. He seemed to feel better following this conversation and left me at the third hole, saying that he must go, and flew away.

I turned to continue with my game of golf, but considered that I did know how to play golf and then awoke.

[Gav]

Time : Morning of Saturday 27th of August : 00:30am – 7.00am GMT(London)
Sleep : Heavy and drunken
Position : Laid on right side

Met an old friend – I have been meeting lots of old friends in dreams lately. He was not quite himself; he was violent and moody and kept trying to blame me for everything that had gone wrong in his life, spent more or less the entire dream which seemed to last hours, either talking to him or fighting him and sometimes both. The dream location was somewhat fictional as we were both living together sharing a flat. My awareness was very low although I do have excellent recall. The low awareness could be attributed to the fact that I was drinking before going to be.

[Blake]

I turned to continue with my game of golf, but considered that I did know how to play golf and then awoke.

lol, yeah, knowing how to play is sort of a key factor in playing golf.

[Gav]

Yeh, I wonder why the golf course? I mean I could play tennis or something, but not gold, odd.

[Gav]

Time : Morning of Sunday 28th of August : 03:30am – 6.00am GMT(London)
Sleep : Heavy and drunken
Position : Laid anyhow, just collapsed I think.

Bad nights sleep, after a night out and was too drunk to remember anything from my dreams. However:

Went back to bed at about 9am. Drifted in and out of boughts of sleep paralysis, gave up trying to sleep – rose dressed and walked down stairs to the front room.

I large commotion was going on outside in the street two giant removal trucks pulled up just down the road from my window followed by a small red car with a family inside.

The man who was driving the car came out and walked directly towards my front room window, he greeted me saying that he was “Going to be moving in with his family” and that “He was glad I was here, it was a good street”.

I did not say anything, I just nodded at him and thought how very forward! I went back to bed to sleep as I had a hangover, when I laid down in bed to sleep I awoke for real.

NO one moved in that day although, the house next door has been soled so there could be something in it, I will have to wait and see what the neighbors look like as I have not seen them yet.

[Gav]

Time : Morning of Monday 29th of August : 00:30am – 9.00am GMT(London)
Sleep : Heavy but disturbed
Position : Laid on back for first experience and then on left side.


The first dream was a classic anxiety dream scenario where I had gone back to school (Lots of dreams of old friends recently, I think I am doing the rounds!) I had failed my exams and they told me that I would have to stay at school for another year and resit them all. (This has parallels to Blake's odd dream about the special school) I tried to explain to them that I did not even need my GCSE exams, I was an adult and I was working as a software engineer, but everyone said that i must stay.

I do have an exam coming up on Friday so this equates well with that.

I was then awoken for sometime and not allowed to go back to sleep (Kirsty) who had a nightmarish DOM that had upset her and she believed that something might be in the room. (Ill speak some more about that in NotAMushRoom's thread as it highlights some important dreaming/OBE topics)

I was very tired but this time I went to sleep intending to OBE, I did finally get free of my body in the bedroom but nothing was around, however I figured I would check out the house and after all no point waisting an OBE (they have been sparse just recently) I walked down into the hall way and out towards the kitchen, I noticed that we had a nice back garden which is not very accurate, in reality we have a concrete back yard.

A man was outside side on a bench under an apple tree, it was sunny, and I was very much aware that my grip on reality was slipping, after all it should have been dark and the garden was wrong. However I was intrigued so I ventured outside to meet him. He was dressed in a beige suit and wore a beige hat, very much a well dressed man of perhaps 60 to 70 years ago.

I sat down at the bench next to him and said hello, he declared to me that he was hoping I could help him as he had lost his identity. I asked why he had come to me and he explained he heard that I might be able to help. I told him that missing identities were not really my line of work, but I asked when was the last time he could remember himself. He said all he knows is that he has been in this garden, he has no recollection of what or where he is, only that he must see me about his identity, which he has lost.

I said to him is it possible that you are simply a part of my identity? As most of what was happening here was one way or another directly attributed to my mind. He looked at me kind of vacant, and I added, you never had an identity, I created you, you are a symbol of my thought, and as such I never gave you an identity. However from now on you can be Bruce.

Bruce thanked me and left through the back gate.

I returned to the bed room with the attention of reviving myself, however I only partially revived and fell into sleep.

Interesting notes, very similar parallels to the conversation I had on the golf course in a previous dream and the dialog that inspired me to write. Also when Kirsty woke me up she told me that the shadow thing that she had seen had told her it was called something like Bruce.

Much more interesting night, may we have many more!!!

[crazycat]

That was weird that you named it Bruce, but you did have this OBE after hearing about Kirsty's dream/OBE, didn't you, so maybe since that name was fresh in your mind is the reason named it Bruce.

[Gav]

HI CC,
Yes it is odd, it could be taken one of two ways, or indeed as I personally believe both ways are valid.

The key piece of information from a logical, and causal in that we are looking for the cause of the experience would be Kirsty telling me about the entity she had just experienced, which was called something like Bruce.

She also told me that Bruce was like a new entity, as if he had never spoken before, so perhaps he had not long been created.

Now this is paradoxical, but most things are. But what if I created Bruce by giving him an identity and naming him, and then he left and visited kirsty earlier in the night. This require that time does not exist on the other side, as Bruce would have been created before he first appeared

And (or) on the flip side of that, Bruce's creation may have been influenced by kirstys experience, in that she gave me the triggers to identify Bruce.

Ohh another paradox.

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After Kirsty told me her experience I explained to her about thought forms, and how Bruce could have been a though form and was only created at that moment. I also said that he did not exist, so perhaps I took away his identity.

When I went under I had the intention of looking for 'Bruce' and I found a mysterious entity, almost certainly thought form that needed a name, and I called it Bruce - perhaps I just gave him back the identity I had denied him.

Interesting but perhaps hard to grasp.

Gav

[Gav]

Time : Morning of Tuesday 30th of August : 1:45am – 7:00am GMT(London)
Sleep :Heavy
Position : Laid on right side

Odd dream last night, some of it, the details, have been forgotten because of bong awoken and by the dogs and having to deal with them before getting it down on paper.

I was a girl, a dog, and me.

The part that was me was more me than the others, the girl and the dog where just kind of me.

The dog was with the girl, and the girl was trapped by a murderer.

I observed through all three observations simultaneously.

The me was overlooking from afar, the dog had strange dog like perceptions, and odd simple thought, the girl was human with human perceptions.

Now the me that was over looking, had a task to complete and I could see the task as like a HUD super imposed over the view. The task comprised of 3 different areas, with 10 events required in each.

One area belonged to the dog, one to the girl and one to the (potential) murderer. I did know clearly what all the separate tasks were, but alas I have forgotten them, I will add them if I remember.

It went something like this though, I only had control over the girl and the dog, I had to influence them in certain ways to so that the murderer would also complete his task.

For example the dog would have to behave in a certain way, to make the girl do something, which in turn cause the effect required on the murderer and then that task is complete.

Odd, however I completed all ten but this did not free the girl, so the dog attacked the murderer and she got away, but this could not happen until the task were attempted, it was as if this was determining causality, what would happen next.

[Gav]

Time : Morning of Wednesday 31st of August : 00:00am – 7:00am GMT(London)
Sleep :light, and often awoken
Position : Laid on left side mostly.

Things are returning to normal with my dreams which means that they are quite ab-normal.

I dreamed that I was a long cylinder of light with coloured electrical pulses refracting through me, my purpose it would seem where to stop the refractions so that the light remained as an identical pulse when it exited the cylinder as when it went in. I had to become void.

I achieved this after several hours trying by continually reconfiguring my self, so that now the pulses could travel through me un altered.

As I voided, I could see each pulse and follow it, each was like a life time, huge and vast, many completely alien, and I simply observed, without thought.

I was woken up by Jess - our dog about 20 times in the night but whenever returning to sleep I would become the cylinder once more, quickly configure my self to void and then once again observe the life times flashing through me.

Deep.

[nani]

Im still working on trying to comprehend the "Bruce-story", which surely I agree on you does have several possibilities to be understood, at least built on the fact that we are finally living on several reality-planes and this even on several time-planes. If we wouldnt consider this to be possible, we shouldnt try to understand anything of this theme in the first place, I believe. This shall not sound arrogant or stupid like it may sound, but Im still under a kind of "blocked-speech-influence" Lol, like yesterday I was also, when I tried 5 times to explain my agreement to what you`ve said quoted below, but I had to delete it over and over again, because it wasnt understandable what I wrote, even not in german lol.
Gav:

Now this is paradoxical, but most things are. But what if I created Bruce by giving him an identity and naming him, and then he left and visited kirsty earlier in the night. This require that time does not exist on the other side, as Bruce would have been created before he first appeared

And (or) on the flip side of that, Bruce's creation may have been influenced by kirstys experience, in that she gave me the triggers to identify Bruce.

Exactly this two assumptions were on my mind too.

So but now I thought about something else:
If Kirsty herself had created this thoughtform in the first place, then I would dare to assume that this thoughtform in person (Bruce), would keeping on being a kind of alive at "the other side", so to say would be waiting there to confront her again, especially because he didnt have or get yet a proper identity, (he was like stammering). So now my idea lol: You Gav then did search for Bruce (Kersty`s thoughtform), meet him in a neutral condition (because you are not feared) and gave him his identity he was searching for, especially in telling him that he is not existing by himself, that he is just a thoughtform. What I wonna say is, that you maybe a kind of did free this thoughtform Bruce by giving identity (like being a part of you, but not personally you, but mainly just a part of a physical being), and therefor you could free also Kersty from it. I want to assume, you a kind of neutralised Kirsty`s thoughtform, which had become fearful for her (and which would come back as we know that fear is created as long as we fear it). So maybe this liberation is something what is possible for all beings to do anyways or just is something which could be done in between lovers or people in a deep connection. Hmm.. I know this sounds very fantasy-like, maybe I still didnt explain well what I mean, anyways we`re only walking here on an assumption-field, but its exciting and fun to just contemplate about all such possibilities.
Gav:

Ohh another paradox.

so at least we would have something like a "Tridox" now hehe. lgn

[Blake]

That cylinder of light thing is really interesting.

[nani]

I didnt mention the cylinder of light yet, because for me it was too obvious that this is a quite exact translation/symbolism of the inorganic beings, mainly tall/long and consisting of energy/light. And the purpose or the assumed best way to get along with such beings is to become void, empty, without emotions or thoughts - so they dont get a grip on you, hmm.. at least I would say so, improve me, lgn