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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Jul 22, 2007 23:54:31 GMT -5
Hi guys..Ive been gone a while..found out some terrible news ..my mom has lung cancer...and everday i spend with her..i drive her to her kemo appointoments , inbetween work ...my life is very confusing right now..very unfullfilling..right now..However Im a very positive person so Im hanging on to that and for my mom...
We found out about two weeks ago...my mom spent a week in hospital..I just honestly kept to myelf the entire time.
my mom is all I ever had in my life so if something happen to her ..my heart will be broken for sure..
allI can say is that the power of mind over this sickeness can win the day if my mom is determined enough...which I feel she is..
but my heart says what will I do without my mom...??
Im vey alone and afraid right now...and all I do is run with her..places..and go to work..
I wanted all of you to know what is going on with me..and my life...and also I want to thank all of you for keeping the other world alive...because it was I was/am born for..to show another side..another picture,another jouney...another place where we may fit..in this chaotic yet fitting place...
Life is too, short to pretend...be yourelf and it will lead you on...
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Post by nani on Jul 23, 2007 19:13:39 GMT -5
LilacSky, Ronni dear, Im sending all the strength I can imagine to you and your mom.. she will come through this.. I believe and I want to believe so, but I somehow really feel so.. if there is something I or some of us could do then please tell.. prayers of course, but if there is something else then let us know.. I also will be more often here again now.. so if you feel like sharing more, just to release the pressure a bit then count on me, also per email anyhow.. I have missed you and all.. and also if I was not here myself a lot too, I often thought about you guys here. Ronni, much love&strength!
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Post by Dancing Bear on Jul 24, 2007 2:35:23 GMT -5
Love, Light, Healing and Strength to you and your Mum ! Lilacsky..  |
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Post by crazycat on Jul 25, 2007 0:39:39 GMT -5
Ronni, I will be pray for you and you mom and send you lots of healing energy.
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Post by Potential on Jul 26, 2007 8:01:41 GMT -5
What do ya think caused the lung cancer? Some jobs have hazardrous materials that could possibly go airborne. Can your mother OBE? My brother got this DVD that explains how to get what you want, I later got the book because I was so impressed with it. It explains the Law of Attraction, how to make things work in your favor. Here is the link thesecret.tv/ |
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Post by elvinlady on Jul 26, 2007 10:44:20 GMT -5
Ronni, I am so sorry to hear that. I will keep you and your mom in my prayers. If there is anything that I can do, let me know. I know where you are coming from if you want to talk or anything, you know how to get in touch with me. Email, work whatever; Let me know. Sending love and healing to you both.  |
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Post by odni on Jul 30, 2007 18:11:15 GMT -5
Very sorry to hear that. I truly hope for strength and joy for you both.
You rock Ronni, you'll get through this!
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Post by avatar on Jul 30, 2007 22:47:40 GMT -5
May we focus on the healing arts, with confidence, knowledge, and will.
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Post by sxy on Jul 31, 2007 1:26:25 GMT -5
I wish your mother with my heart , all the healing that she needs . I will pray for her .
Truth, love and light will guide you both .
~S.X.Y.~
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Aug 5, 2007 21:22:05 GMT -5
hi guys ..I just wrote a huge thing and some how it got deleted..so here I go again... first off..thank you for all your kindness and positive energies..trust me its helpful..more than you know..because my mom is all i ever had..so this is very very hard for me to go through... so far shes doing okay..she spent another week in the hospital because they found a bloodclot in her leg and her white blood cells were very low..to the point we had to were masks to go into her room... now shes out, and she's loosing her hair..she keeps pulling it out and showing me and I say ..mom omg please stop...lol we laugh about it because she know's how much I hate hair when its not on where its supposed to me..like her dog louie for example ..his hair is everywhere and Im always complaining about it.. but she got some cool hats and stuff..to go with her earings...so she's been wearing her new look around..haha..she's very amazing lady..she breaks even my negativity..and my fears..and we end up just laughing..so Im thankful... on a positive note..since her treatments the doctors say her cancer is smaller in size and is shrinking..thank god... but seriously my life is work and taking care of her..Im 29 years old I have no life..I never get out..so finally the stress is finding me..but Ill say this..I had a premonition of something happening to my mom when I first came here.. and to me it is where I need to be..where I belong at this moment in time..and she needs me and so far its been pretty much me and her...supporting one another through all this...and I wouldnt want it to be anyone else with her... the 2 of cups in tarot is the precise example of what it is about..a bond..that cant be broken..weather it be romantic..or simply mother and daughter... and yes im still reading cards..but thats about it...and I really miss my metaphysical life..but since Ive moved here..its kind of vanished..I am unhappy with where Im living as well..however the people at work keep me going..and they are very understanding for me and my mom..so again im thankful... other than that..I just fight every day the negative crap that gets in my way..and i deliver it to my mom..in comedy..haha.. laughter can break even the wrath of our own negative ways... and adversity is pretty much all I have right now..at least I have my strength..which I thought I lost this past week with her in the hospital..I never felt such stress..and honestly I feel like Im the one whos gonna loose it and have a heart attack or something..but coming here helped me alot and seeing all of you still here supporting this wonderful fortress...I thank you all!!! bless you... and may things come to sense one day where we dont have to ask ..we just know..where dont need to struggle ..we just understand...  love you... |
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Post by elvinlady on Aug 6, 2007 9:34:44 GMT -5
love you to Ronni. You hang in there. I am glad that your mom is so upbeat. That is the only way to be. I know that for a fact it does help. I will keep you two in my prayers. I remember when my hair first started falling out that was something. It is coming back now. It is just stubbles and it looks like it's white. Can you imagine me with white hair. ;D  You take care and keep strong. Sending love and healing light to you and your mom. If you need anything, let me know. |
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Aug 6, 2007 17:40:13 GMT -5
aww thank you donna..and same to you sweety.. yeah everyone keeps telling me to stay positive and to keep her positive as well..sometimes we just get on eachothers nerves though and that is when we focus our attention to her dog louie lol.. |
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Post by nani on Aug 7, 2007 4:20:52 GMT -5
these are some good news Ronny, thanksgod, and its so uplifting to hear you talking the way you talk, you are really strong Ronny and your greatest gift is your humor and of course this intensively bond between you&mom is such powerful, I can really picture you both, although I`ve never seen your mom, I have an intense perception of you both together, laughing and also just brave going through all this, oh and louie too, that was funny lol, and of course at times one gets nerved by all the things and organisations which have to be done, thats so natural to feel stressed at times, also cause the other things like job and such have to be continued as well, so I would call that kind of periods "time of priorities" cause often one has to decide so fast and new what has to be put in second line, though all seems as it would need your action and attention right now, at the same time. Ronni&Mom you powerladies, keep on rockn - soon you both will be entirely through this and then you can be proud to have faced and managed one of the most fearing possibilities which can occur in this life, for me This is the most valuable true, exert and experience of Spirituality, all else - even obeing - in comparison seems like a spiritual playground. Much love, Nani
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Post by elvinlady on Aug 7, 2007 10:19:05 GMT -5
I know there are times when I get stressed and I am sure I get on people's nerves. ;D Pets can be so great at times like this. No matter how you feel, they love you and show you their love. Do you still have kitty? I have a crazy cat. Take care. Sending love and light. |
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Aug 31, 2007 23:34:10 GMT -5
aww well thank you nani...and donna both donna's haha.. so my mom is getting double doses of kemo and radiation..and she has scared me a few times..getting really sick to the point I couldnt even go over to see her..but I did go over there to of course..I just made her wear a mask..because her white blood cells are so low..its scarey..her immune system completely wiped out..I was in panic mode because I sometimes dont know if those doctors are doing the right thing..this is a small town and folks call our hospital the band aide hospital lol..but shes okay I suppose...she has no hair..and she looks cute i told her she looked like a mass murderer haha..she laughed..but shes gonna make it if she doesnt give up and sometimes I think shes going to and shes right back at joking and jamming the music loud..so she knows it is her very will that will win this..and im there to make sure of it.. soon she will get tests done to see if the cancer has grown or is gone..and I have a feeling it will be in our favor.. have you guys seen this or heard of it? www.knowthecause.com/articles/read_article.php?id=15anyway check it out..someone refered me to it at work and I want your opinions on it.. and thank you all again for the support..I miss you guys..I hope my life gets back to a normal heart rate soon so I can catch up here..I have some plans for the forum to come... |
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Post by elvinlady on Sept 1, 2007 8:49:12 GMT -5
interesting article. I had never heard of that before. it makes you think.
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Post by watchman11 on Sept 1, 2007 10:42:34 GMT -5
I'm so sorry I missed this thread, Ronni. I'll keep you and your mom in my thoughts.
*hugs*
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Post by nani on Sept 1, 2007 16:53:25 GMT -5
Ronni, great that you both are going through this with such strength. It sounds good and I believe that all will be positive yes.
about the article.. I`ve read it, though not sure if I understood all, but anyways I know about many similar thesis and researches.. but point is that the "normal health-science" does make most of us believe that the Only way is their way, and this believe is deep inside of us, we can not easily get above that. So.. my opinion.. with a half-believe to go into a new therapie or anything like this- is no use and help.
Speaking for myself I am quite convinced that what was said in the articel is right and many other theories too, but each one must alone on his own decide what he/she would do, how strong the believe in whatever therapy is. I finally think that one thing is most decisive: the trust and believe we put into the therapy.
best wishes, thoughts and prayers for the healing of our mom!
Nani
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Post by Lena on Sept 1, 2007 19:13:26 GMT -5
Hi sweety, hugs to you both Sorry, I missed this thread. I kept thinking of you this week for some reason, and even had a dream about you, though I don't remember it. Sending your mom AND YOU healing light. I'm not an expert on therapies, but let me tell you that I don't think people realize how much what we eat affects our bodies. Good nutrition is important to keep the immune system going. You are such a wonderful and caring person, Ronni. I'm sure you give you mom lots of strength!! Your mom is the one, who will make a choice what to do in this situation, and whatever it is, trust that she makes the right one. Lena |
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on Sept 4, 2007 19:49:45 GMT -5
hey guys..thank you for your thoughts and kindness..Ill be back to add to this post.. |
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You take care and keep strong. Sending love and healing light to you and your mom. If you need anything, let me know. 
