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Post by nondanela on May 13, 2005 4:27:20 GMT -5
Hi , I have this thing I need help with. I can 'read' people's emotions, thoughts and stuff from a mere glance. Trouble is though I can only do it with people that are strangers to me. Once I've allowed any one person to become a part of my energy it gets to a stage where there is no distinction between my own and theirs and then once the person is no longer unfamiliar I lose this ability towards them. It is only under extremely strenuous circumstances that I can regain it towards that particular person again. I also quite regularly have the most vivid dreams , and they manifest quite often. I feel weary and overloaded sometimes and then I wonder if it's worth it? In South Africa this thing is not talked about understand? Is there a way to channel this energy and make it manageable and less haphazard? I consciously work on shutting this thing off because it opens up doors to planes and realms that untutored minds have no place being. I even had a visitation from Old Lu himself on one occasion when I was younger and didn't know yet how to protect myself. Help someone please if you can. I am vulnerable ALL the time and I know I need to become stronger if I'm to survive. I am so very weary of being exposed like this. My feet are planted too firmly on the ground for me to know how to handle this. I guess what scares me is that I can't control the images and torrent of thoughts and emotions that get thrown at me all the time. And the WORST aspect is that I react instinctively and throw back my own energy at whomever and that's when things start going wrong. It grows stronger every day. I know I would not be who I am without it but I need a measure of control over this thing. Or at least SOME relief. Greetings nondi
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Post by nani on May 13, 2005 7:20:05 GMT -5
Hi nondi, oh I can understand that this great gifts you have can be burdensome at times. Im not a professor of anything to give you a truly good advice, but what I do for myself when I feel too open and also too flood by subconscious substances is that I imagine a protection-shield of light arround myself. Not only imagine, but really building it up in constant meditations. There are lots of great imagination- and energy exercises in the "Qi-gong" field, lots for protection and equilibration of the too little- or too much energy flow. Maybe you also could find there some help and things you can practice. Blake (and Gav) knows quite a lot about energy-work. You could do a thread with his name on top, so he`ll see it immediately when he comes by, like: "Blake, a thought". And Ronni for sure also does have a good idea. all the best to you love_growth Nani
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on May 13, 2005 8:25:29 GMT -5
good morning nondanela,.. You are going through many changes for the better here. I would treat this a positive rather than a negative, becuase there is no possible way of shutting off completely, since your subconsicous is always at work, even in waking life we all pick up psychic infomation that is shown to us later in our dreams. I would treat this matter with care, by getting to know it much better the connection you have with the psychic levels of reality,by using tools such as tarot,crystal balls,your dreams,numerology,astrology,and any other method for psychic work. Your dreams may be very prophectic at this time as you have said they are quit vivd, again this is the psychic realm. I have learned to channel my psychic energy in a way that I do not pick up everything from others, however, since I am an empath, which it sounds to me you are as well, you will find that people will just come to you with problems or you are a magnant to unique people possible people on the same path as you, I would go with the feelings you get,and learn from them, they will teach you about communication with all differant types of people as well as your own communication to your inner self. I am happy to see someone who is similiar to me and that has the some of the same experiences..and Im willing to help you through this if youd like. Nani metiioned some great points as well, though energy work is more of the body,perhaps medium work would be more suited for you, and of course psychic tools. Its important to do dream work as well, I found that by using both dream work and tarot,numerology,runes, I understood my psychic self better and the psychic realm, which I beleive is somewhere past lucid dreaming...a layer in which is just below the astral plane, where information is received and perhaps we can even communicate with those that have passed on.. good luck, and this is a great thing!!
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Post by nondanela on May 16, 2005 1:40:36 GMT -5
Ronni ,
Do you know the crux of the matter is that I am MAD. People flock to me like .. I don't know what. But they bleed me dry. Do you understand what I'm trying to say? It's like they take all this healthy wholesome type of energy out of me and leave me a bit drier and less WHOLE every time. I'm at the point where I do not allow people into my life anymore , least not easily because it's inevitably all the NEEDY ones that are attracted to me like moths to a flame. People who have one or the other need and within days or so their lives will be in tip top shape and I'll be left with the broken pieces of my own. I want to be very honest and say that I am not very pleased about that. I bleed from every pore when I feel someone else's hurt and then I subconsciously ' heal' their lives and I can't say if the negative energey then transfers to me or what , you know but then everything in MY life goes haywire.
By the way thank yo so much Nani for your input.
I'll post again later. We talk some more. I have a few appointments to keep.
lovely hearing from you.
nondi
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on May 16, 2005 10:32:50 GMT -5
nondanela, I have found that we attract those that are similiar to us, and some us even attract those that need to see something more in life, something beneath the surface, maybe its becuase you have this quality, and that perhaps these people are attracted to you, becuase you have or know something they don't..and maybe they need your guidance.. I Think again you can try to shut this off, but I am very similiar to you and Ive tried and it doesn't seem to work very well., so maybe it will prove to be a blessing later, but I must say it is draining,however that is when we have to use adversity and use this as a tool in life, perhaps to help others and ourselves by understanding.. I would perhaps not be so open with others until you know you can trust them, I think I often give people the benefit of the doubt,and usualy this lands me in heartache or I learn a lesson from that person..always learning, so maybe use it also as a way to learn and grow..when people flock to you, address them in a way that they will know that you will not exstend yourself in a way that it hurts you, thats what I would do, or when they approach you turn the other way... I think for me, when these people approach me, I usually give them my help/opinions what have you, and than keep walking, because I can usually spot these people a mile away, and they usually are looking for help, but some are just looking to build their ego, and those are the ones to stand clear from..ya know. The more I learn about people the more I can see them and usually my first instincts of them are correct, so also trust your instincts, if you sence them to be negative, ignore them or tell them, you don't want them around, do not let them get the best of you,just walk past them. I also try simple focus techniques where I imagine the world and Im over it, and all the energy is estending to me, instead of from me, its just something I do when I feel I need a bit of support or help myself..
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Post by nondanela on May 17, 2005 1:24:25 GMT -5
And the moral of the story is not to get too involved in others' lives. You're right , I know. Only I can stop this drain of my resources and I guess I have to wake up and smell the coffee. I'm doing it to myself. I have to learn to say NO. I'm a proper bleeding heart. Anyway , that is so. On to the positive. You mentioned something about Tarot and numerology. How to learn these skills? Can you direct me to some sites and I'll get hold of some literature on them. I will learn to master this because I need/have to. My father and his mother and so forth back along the line had these gifts and they learnt how to BE, successfully. My father brought me a message many moons ago after he passed on telling me that this is my legacy so....Maybe I need to enlist their help as well to find my balance. I cannot thank you enough Ronni for listening to my tirade. I really needed to let some steam off. PS: this thingy , shoutbox or whatever can one chat on there at any time? cheers nondi
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Post by ~¤LilacSky¤~ on May 17, 2005 6:55:15 GMT -5
your welcome nondanela, I feel as you alot of times, I understand completley what your going through, a few times, I had to leave work because I had intense feelings,overwhelming me, and It was because I sensed something bad, or perhaps the energy around me.and this actualy happend while I was at home to, people call them anziety attacks, but I don't think that is what they are for everyone, I think its due to feeling and taking in others energy around us, good or bad..and sometimes its unbareable ya know.. thats interesting about your family, I would love to hear more.. oh and you are welcome to let steam off here anytime!! I know I have to sometimes, because life is hard, and Im constantly going through something, but I try to see the light in everything, and remain as positive as possible.. oh and I will add a few tarot sites and also I recommend getting a book on it, at least one, I would suggest Idiots guide to being psychic because it teaches many differant tools not just one, and I must say its the best book for learning your psychic awareness... oh and yeah the shoutbox anyone can use anytime, just type your name and message and hit send!! here is a study for tarot, a pretty good one www.amystickalgrove.com/cgi-bin/site/site.cgi?conf=CatID7 ;D
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