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Post by Ejoty on Jul 7, 2006 4:21:40 GMT -5
Great post, Akeia! I wanna be a $100 bill No one ever said that you weren't!
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Post by Ejoty on Jul 10, 2006 1:34:46 GMT -5
Humanity
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Post by Ejoty on Jul 16, 2006 2:37:45 GMT -5
I'm a great fan of the "The Complete Idiot's Guide to..." I Find them to be light in the heavy thoughts department and really informative. The Paganism one might work on Hubby! If anything, it might get Him to sort of understand what you are interested in. Lotsa Luck and Love sent to You!!
Dancing Bear... The Runes look great!!!
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Post by Ejoty on Jul 15, 2006 4:58:31 GMT -5
Lady Bleu... Perhaps you could find an intro book on Paganism? Have Him read it so He could try to understand you and what you are talking about?
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Post by Ejoty on Jul 10, 2006 2:55:34 GMT -5
Thank you Ladies for the well wishes to my story. And I'm glad that it is of help to others.
Here's a poem...
~ I Survived! ~
I didn’t think I deserved to be discarded so easily. I didn’t know you were capable of doing what you did!
You reached into my chest and ripped out my heart and soul. They ended up on the curb like a piece of garbage.
I wandered around for a while, lost and dead to the world.
I finally found a cave of solitude up high, looking over the water. I sat there in the dark, weeping from the pain.
As I looked out across the water, I could see you on the other side. Beckoning to me, enticing me to step out on the ledge and fly back to you.
I looked inside me and saw a fire, burning quietly in the hole that you left. Soon the flames engulfed me, consuming me to ashes!
I arose like the phoenix, anew and with a new life and a new purpose! The pain was still there, but it was softened by new healing salves that I found. Healing the pain with Family that was forgotten. Friends were found from around the world. Sense of spirituality that screamed to be paid attention to!
A year has passed.
Destruction has been sown. Lives have been forever changed! But, the one thing I bet you never expected to happen, happened!
I Survived!
Ejoty
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Post by Ejoty on Jul 8, 2006 6:23:13 GMT -5
Spears of destiny pointing the way.
August 24th 2004 was where the saying “One chapter ends, and another begins” put me into a whole new book. That day my wife came to me and handed me a two-page note. That note said a lot of things, most of them not even important, except for the ones near the end. That part was the most devastating and as I now know, the most wonderful part to read. It pretty much said “get out…I no longer love you and no longer want you in my life!” At the time, I was stunned, crushed, destroyed. All I could do was pack up my work things and head to work. I shuffled off to work, did my job by scaring everyone away with my dead, haunted eyes and quiet responses of “leave me alone.” I spent several days afterwards getting little sleep and staying away from my home, when I wasn’t working. By this time, I was talking to people, mostly so I could figure out what to do and to try and ease the ache where my heart was. Not even a week had passed when I “found out” about my wife’s long time affair with an ex-friend. That discovery was where the fire was lit with in me, and I went into over-drive to get out. But only after one horrible night where I contemplated letting her win and kill myself by throwing myself off of the top floor of my work building. I stepped back and decided to not let her win. I hunted down Friends and Family to borrow money to get an apartment. My Mother and Step Father finally came through with the help. I got one in three days and not only got out of the path of my wife, but started the repairing of the damaged relationship with my Step Father who I was angry with over a 10 year old disagreement between us. September starts. I figure that I have burned the bad bridges of my past and that it’s time to forge new ones for the future. I begin by getting some of my things out to put into my new place and was feeling almost normal and clear headed. So, I started to think what my friends had been saying and realized that at particular moment that I was being guided and watched out for. I was in the middle of a cosmic tug of war for my soul and sanity! I spent most of my 33 years, up to that moment, in a state of flux between being an atheist and an agnostic. It all depended on what I was focused on and felt to make me switch around. So I said to myself “since there is a fight for me, and I’m at a good point, when is the other shoe going to drop?” I now regret thinking those words at times. So, with those thoughts in my head I go back to get more things. By now, Wife is home and not really willing to help me move out. And since the moment where I was asked to leave, I never said much or acted out to my Wife. But that night was when the other side won and dropped the shoe. No one got hurt and besides me, the only other loser that night was the front door. She locked me out and I showed the door who was the boss. My wife decides that I finally lost my head and was going to do something so She calls the police. I just wanted to let her know that I had the right to my things and I stormed off. I cool down and then get into a panic due to realizing what I did. Needless to say, the police come and get me. So, there I was, in jail. I began to think that not only did the other side win but that my Wife did too. I had lost my Wife, which meant I lost my stepdaughter (9 yrs old), who I helped raise from a baby. And with me being where I was meant my job and my new apartment. It was all gone! Nothing left! I sat there for four days. I didn’t eat or drink anything. What was the point? The fire in me died. When I got out, I ran to my work to see if I was still employed. That was a point where the fire got stoked up a bit. I try to get my life back together and to a bearable point which was not easy with the reminders of my past in the form of a probation officer and a court order to get checked out by a therapist. All because of my admitting to the police that I was unhappy due to the failed marriage and their deciding to keep a “suicide watch” on me while I was in jail. So, I work and try to go on with things. One night, a friend (and tenant of the apt building where I work) comes in and asked to see some Rune stones that I had been talking about. I have been interested with new age ideas for years and had always enjoyed reading new age subjects so I collected such things. The next night I bring them in and show them to him. I had completely forgotten about the self-readings that I left in the rune book from some years earlier.. that is until they fell out of the book. I looked at them and just sunk into my chair. My friend asks if I’m ok. I just stare at the page… there it was! Five years before, almost to the day! I scryed that my marriage was going to fail and that I was going to look inward and change myself! I SAW IT! I knew at that moment that I was on a right path. I realized that I controlled some of what happened to me, but more importantly I wasn’t alone! Spirits were guiding me, looking out for me. I was also being guided by even greater beings. I suddenly understood a sense of faith! The flames of my heart stoked up in hope and happiness! I knew I had to look for more understanding of faith and Gods, and since the Rune stones were a catalyst to my understanding they were where I was going to look first! I looked at some books and found websites to try and help me. My friends and co-workers remarked on the sudden change and joy that I was emanating. October comes and by now, I see connections to higher beings everywhere and in almost everything I do. By this time, I try really hard not to think about my wife and only my stepdaughter. It mostly works but for when Halloween comes. That day was a roller coaster day, due to it being my 7th wedding anniversary and the first day I got to see my stepdaughter and spend the evening with her trick or treating. Things pretty much begin to slow down to where I don’t feel so astonished and amazed the Universe and I are connected, and I begin to really understand my place and how much control I have with my quest. January ’05 comes around, and I find out even more spiritual connections, through the acceptance and understanding that reincarnation has happened to me. And connects me to people that I had never met yet feel a part of. I begin to realize that if I am going to control the demons and heal myself I need to learn to meditate. While I spend the next months looking for classes, I am able to continually see where I am being guided when I stray from my quest. I finally find (though guided works too!) the closest meditation class in mid March. A Buddhist meditation class, that by the fourth week in, I feel that I was meant to be in it due to how fitting the teachings fit my trials.
A year has passed.
I still have demons lurking out there, waiting, and watching to see a chance to burn me when my guardian spirits or I slip up. I have changed. Like the phoenix, I burned up and arose new and better!
By Ejoty
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Post by Ejoty on Jul 3, 2006 2:13:07 GMT -5
A poem I wrote several years ago and before my beliefs that I commented on earlier.
~~ Dreams ~~ When I was younger I used to dream
Now when I sleep I no longer dream
What does that mean?
Am I no longer sleeping? Or no longer awake! ~~
Ejoty
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Post by Ejoty on Jul 1, 2006 5:11:01 GMT -5
I shall ramble on my thoughts of Dreams!
I don't believe dreams are ways to work out the days events. I believe that dreams are either alternate realities that I'm looking at or in some cases future events. I have felt this way for quite a many years. Then recently I came across several religions that in many ways agree with me. I found that Buddhism and Hinduism both agree with my thoughts.
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Post by Ejoty on Jun 30, 2006 7:27:58 GMT -5
[glow=red,2,300]Happy Belated Birthday, Andin[/glow]
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Post by Ejoty on Jun 23, 2006 7:32:46 GMT -5
For me, it was initially the subjest on past life regression, plus a few other things. But at the moment it seems to have gone into a deeper metaphysical reason.
As to the look? I like the colour scheme. It's easy on the eyes.
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Post by Ejoty on Jun 22, 2006 8:39:36 GMT -5
Have a wonderful time and experience!
I looked at the website and it sounds like an amazing place and all!
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Post by Ejoty on Jun 1, 2006 8:11:32 GMT -5
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Post by Ejoty on May 20, 2006 5:13:24 GMT -5
Spatial/Visual Pretty close!
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Post by Ejoty on May 6, 2006 3:02:33 GMT -5
LilacSky... I see it as fairly accurate for you. You clearly worked hard to achieve this site. And you work at perfecting it. In some way you must love to gossip, otherwise you wouldn't have this site. And you do consider others above yourself.. otherwise you wouldn't be here. (And no I'm not sucking up for Karma points!)
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Post by Ejoty on May 5, 2006 2:22:03 GMT -5
Yes I know that the Goddess quiz is for Ladies, but once I took it and saw what it said, I was impressed with how close to the skills and real me that it showed.
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Post by Ejoty on May 4, 2006 4:49:17 GMT -5
I'm impressed! Most quizzes seem to miss my personality yet this one got me right. In reality I'm a Dog (Thats sign not species!!)
You are the Pig!
You are chivalrous and gallant. Whatever you do, you do with all your strength. You have tremendous fortitude and great honesty. You dont make many friends but the friends you do make, you make for life, and you are extremely loyal. You dont talk much but you have a great thirst for knowledge. You study a great deal and are generally well informed. You can be quick tempered, yet you hate arguments and fighting. No matter how bad problems seem to be, you try to work them out.
An important lesson for the Pig is to realize that there's more to life than being needed.
You are Seshat! The Lady of the Library. Seshat is the Goddess of reading, writing, architecture and arithmatic. Seshat is a helpul Goddess, who is unique because she embodies the responsibilities that used to belong to men.
*Shudder* Scary how fitting!
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Post by Ejoty on May 7, 2006 4:03:33 GMT -5
You are a Werewolf. You are spontanious and wild. You hate it when peoeple try to hurt the ones you love and don't take kindly to hostility. You have a tendency to to lose your temper and throw a fit once in a while, but at the end of the day you're still just a puppy inside. Take this quiz! Almost me!! The wrong part is "You are spontanious and wild."
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Post by Ejoty on Apr 27, 2006 8:39:48 GMT -5
Congratulations, Ladies!!!!
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Post by Ejoty on Apr 30, 2006 4:50:54 GMT -5
Thanks!
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Post by Ejoty on Apr 30, 2006 2:47:48 GMT -5
Hmm... I just realized that if I get all Ogre-y, I could get Smited to my hearts content!! ;D ... Who am I kidding! I'm not a mean Ogre!
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