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Post by nani on Oct 31, 2005 19:12:26 GMT -5
just fast want to put my last nights dream:
met 2 old friends from the past, with one I wanted to make music, but his sister was there too and she wanted to leave with him, or something like that. What happened with the other one I dont remember. When I thought about this morning I just could realize that they both are connected to death in a way.
Im totally frustrated and disgruntled at the moment, I`ve done some computer-music after a while of not being on the computer, played and played and played and recorded - and suddenly all dissappeared to grey, it just doesnt want to play anymore...aaaarrrrggggghghghghghghghWEILRTUL GVWLERKWRNDHURVTFJQEHTI4THEHTUHQKERZT35GIEQTJTU, THIS DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING - JUST EMOTIONS LOL
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Post by nani on Nov 1, 2005 4:11:39 GMT -5
after this exhausting and really too disgruntled night yesterday I found some release in my dreams, dont know if this more occuring sexuality in my dreams lately does come just from anger or if it has to do with the book-read. dream 1.11.05: (very real and clear feel) Im visiting a kind of music-community of people (2 couples and a man, a bit ealder than me, but unfamiliar), my boyfriend also is with me but more in the back of the dream. Im wondering how free and easy they get along with each other, like no jealousy and all they have is shared. Anytime one of the couple-man and I go to his bed to have sex till a most satisfying point, at least for me (but like in the other dream no union). Then I visit the other single-guy in his room, I want to play music with him, explain something about that Im not such profi like him and he says moaningly: arrgh why does it always have to be made such complicated.. and now it really seems to me even harder to get something started on the guitar.
So okay now I`ll go back to my music-programm and try to find out what is my problem. Im doing a lot of composing and arrangement in our music, but the recording stuff I usually leave up to my partner who now is in India. All the tracks of singing and sound-bowl I did yesterday are still there, but they went grey and I cant listen to them anymore, so I must have pressed innocently one of those 3 million fffffffffknn bottons which does mute them. But Oh No I dont let me get angry again, that is not healthy for me, I fall totally out of balance and Im shaking for hours - I`ve needed 2 hours yesterday to get to sleep, utilized all the calming techniques I know, so now Im just having a brief look at my music, then leave lol.
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Post by nani on Nov 6, 2005 13:10:56 GMT -5
6.11.05 1. dream: again 2 old friends of the past (they dont know each other), both like 20 years younger than me. Im having a relationship to the girl, she has very long red hair and is looking like an angel (in real). Then I get into a very romantic thing with the guy. Then Im saying to him: I will introduce you to my girl-friend, maybe you both would get together to be a couple, that would rather fit than me being with one of you..
2. dream: Im with a lot of forum (also 20 years younger, mainly female) people in a big house, we`re doing a film or theatre-film. Im the regisseur, producer and actor, but the main-actor is a wonderful snake, a cobra, which appeares at the end first. So we are in our disguise-room and talking exciting our acts, I do give the last commands because its the dress-rehearsel. Then suddenly the question occurs in which language we all should talk, and I decide that we just talk in a fantasy-language each of us. Then the actors go down the stairways yet, while Im still up doing my last own special preparations in taking a stick (which is supposed to become a sword later on) and I do some sword-technique exercises to warm up my hands. Then I leave the room go towards the steps which lead downstairs. Then I already see her: a wonderful straight risen Cobra, like 3 m long, but 1 meter is straight upwards with her beautiful and proud head. We all go like: aww oh whooo.. and get excited, but also a bit of fearful and respectful. Then the wonderful Snake, which looks and feels like and old and wise lady, comes towards me who is standing on the stairway..
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Post by nani on Nov 16, 2005 10:26:47 GMT -5
16.11.2005 finished the book yesterday evening (and still can not say that I got clever enough to understand it entirely)
dream: Ronni is supposed to come to germany with her whole family, which is mainly the mother and a sister and father(in the background). I am supposed to make a kind of welcome-party in doing music and organising the whole thing for celebration. In the middle of my organisations, while the mother and sister have already arrived, we all got the message that Ronni has died. This is sooooooo sad in the dream and Im totally confused and dont know what to do and how to help us, especially the family members. Then Im asked if I could do and lead the celebration for Ronnis funeral, if I would be able to speak and sing the last words for her without crying. I say that I never can do this without crying - but finally I said, okay I`ll do that, I have to try it at least. I choosed a song from my programm which is called; "spanish dreams" and started (totally sad) to get all prepared. Then Ronni suddenly is alive again - and the joy of all of us is sooooooo limitless. Then finally we go on to make our "welcome-happy-life-party" preparations all together.. really happy..
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Post by sxy on Nov 25, 2005 1:49:42 GMT -5
;DNani I had a very similar dream about a woman that i met in my dream that was asked to do a funeral,I listened to some of the speech and song ~ like rymed.... It could have been you I'll have to check the date ,,,, just a day or so ago ... hummm ... cool ... I wonder if any of us also had other similar dreams too ... ~SXY~
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Post by nani on Nov 25, 2005 17:41:20 GMT -5
wow thats incredible SXY, really cool. I guess that any kind of funeral/death does just mean a change. Change alsways is good, no? Hey nice to see and read of you. Im sorry that Im not so much on the forum lately, but Im not gone, not at all, its just that Im messing around with a political party - I just had decided to put some energy into that stuff, so Im doing, a kind of change cause I never before got into that stuff. But okay its not too exciting lol. So Im looking forward to keep`n touch friends, lgn
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